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Song of Myself.

SONG OF MYSELF.

1

I CELEBRATE myself, and sing myself, And what I assume you shall assume, For every atom belonging to me as good belongs to you. I loafe and invite my soul, I lean and loafe at my ease observing a spear of summer grass. My tongue, every atom of my blood, form'd from this soil, this  
 air,
Born here of parents born here from parents the same, and their  
 parents the same,
I, now thirty-seven years old in perfect health begin, Hoping to cease not till death.
Creeds and schools in abeyance, Retiring back a while sufficed at what they are, but never forgotten, I harbor for good or bad, I permit to speak at every hazard, Nature without check with original energy.

2

Houses and rooms are full of perfumes, the shelves are crowded  
 with perfumes,
I breathe the fragrance myself and know it and like it, The distillation would intoxicate me also, but I shall not let it.
The atmosphere is not a perfume, it has no taste of the distillation,  
 it is odorless,
It is for my mouth forever, I am in love with it, I will go to the bank by the wood and become undisguised and  
 naked,
I am mad for it to be in contact with me.
  [ begin page 30 ]ppp.01663.038.jpg The smoke of my own breath, Echoes, ripples, buzz'd whispers, love-root, silk-thread, crotch and  
 vine,
My respiration and inspiration, the beating of my heart, the pass- 
 ing of blood and air through my lungs,
The sniff of green leaves and dry leaves, and of the shore and  
 dark-color'd sea-rocks, and of hay in the barn,
The sound of the belch'd words of my voice loos'd to the eddies  
 of the wind,
A few light kisses, a few embraces, a reaching around of arms, The play of shine and shade on the trees as the supple boughs  
 wag,
The delight alone or in the rush of the streets, or along the fields  
 and hill-sides,
The feeling of health, the full-noon trill, the song of me rising from  
 bed and meeting the sun.
Have you reckon'd a thousand acres much? have you reckon'd  
 the earth much?
Have you practis'd so long to learn to read? Have you felt so proud to get at the meaning of poems?
Stop this day and night with me and you shall possess the origin  
 of all poems,
You shall possess the good of the earth and sun, (there are millions  
 of suns left,)
You shall no longer take things at second or third hand, nor look  
 through the eyes of the dead, nor feed on the spectres in  
 books,
You shall not look through my eyes either, nor take things from me, You shall listen to all sides and filter them from your self.

3

I have heard what the talkers were talking, the talk of the begin- 
 ning and the end,
But I do not talk of the beginning or the end.
There was never any more inception than there is now, Nor any more youth or age than there is now, And will never be any more perfection than there is now, Nor any more heaven or hell than there is now. Urge and urge and urge, Always the procreant urge of the world.   [ begin page 31 ]ppp.01663.039.jpg Out of the dimness opposite equals advance, always substance and  
 increase, always sex,
Always a knit of identity, always distinction, always a breed of life.
To elaborate is no avail, learn'd and unlearn'd feel that it is so. Sure as the most certain sure, plumb in the uprights, well entretied,  
 braced in the beams,
Stout as a horse, affectionate, haughty, electrical, I and this mystery here we stand.
Clear and sweet is my soul, and clear and sweet is all that is not  
 my soul.
Lack one lacks both, and the unseen is proved by the seen, Till that becomes unseen and receives proof in its turn. Showing the best and dividing it from the worst age vexes age, Knowing the perfect fitness and equanimity of things, while they  
 discuss I am silent, and go bathe and admire myself.
Welcome is every organ and attribute of me, and of any man  
 hearty and clean,
Not an inch nor a particle of an inch is vile, and none shall be  
 less familiar than the rest.
I am satisfied—I see, dance, laugh, sing; As the hugging and loving bed-fellow sleeps at my side through  
 the night, and withdraws at the peep of the day with  
 stealthy tread,
Leaving me baskets cover'd with white towels swelling the house  
 with their plenty,
Shall I postpone my acceptation and realization and scream at my  
 eyes,
That they turn from gazing after and down the road, And forthwith cipher and show me to a cent, Exactly the value of one and exactly the value of two, and which  
 is ahead?

4

Trippers and askers surround me, People I meet, the effect upon me of my early life or the ward  
 and city I live in, or the nation,
The latest dates, discoveries, inventions, societies, authors old and  
 new,
  [ begin page 32 ]ppp.01663.040.jpg My dinner, dress, associates, looks, compliments, dues, The real or fancied indifference of some man or woman I love, The sickness of one of my folks or of myself, or ill-doing or loss or  
 lack of money, or depressions or exaltations,
Battles, the horrors of fratricidal war, the fever of doubtful news,  
 the fitful events;
These come to me days and nights and go from me again, But they are not the Me myself.
Apart from the pulling and hauling stands what I am, Stands amused, complacent, compassionating, idle, unitary, Looks down, is erect, or bends an arm on an impalpable certain  
 rest,
Looking with side-curved head curious what will come next, Both in and out of the game and watching and wondering at it.
Backward I see in my own days where I sweated through fog with  
 linguists and contenders,
I have no mockings or arguments, I witness and wait.

5

I believe in you my soul, the other I am must not abase itself to you, And you must not be abased to the other. Loafe with me on the grass, loose the stop from your throat, Not words, not music or rhyme I want, not custom or lecture, not  
 even the best,
Only the lull I like, the hum of your valvèd voice.
I mind how once we lay such a transparent summer morning, How you settled your head athwart my hips and gently turn'd over  
 upon me,
And parted the shirt from my bosom-bone, and plunged your  
 tongue to my bare-stript heart,
And reach'd till you felt my beard, and reach'd till you held my  
 feet.
Swiftly arose and spread around me the peace and knowledge that  
 pass all the argument of the earth,
And I know that the hand of God is the promise of my own, And I know that the spirit of God is the brother of my own, And that all the men ever born are also my brothers, and the  
 women my sisters and lovers,
And that a kelson of the creation is love, And limitless are leaves stiff or drooping in the fields,
  [ begin page 33 ]ppp.01663.041.jpg And brown ants in the little wells beneath them, And mossy scabs of the worm fence, heap'd stones, elder, mullein  
 and poke-weed.

6

A child said What is the grass? fetching it to me with full hands; How could I answer the child? I do not know what it is any  
 more than he.
I guess it must be the flag of my disposition, out of hopeful green  
 stuff woven.
Or I guess it is the handkerchief of the Lord, A scented gift and remembrancer designedly dropt, Bearing the owner's name someway in the corners, that we may  
 see and remark, and say Whose?
Or I guess the grass is itself a child, the produced babe of the  
 vegetation.
Or I guess it is a uniform hieroglyphic, And it means, Sprouting alike in broad zones and narrow zones, Growing among black folks as among white, Kanuck, Tuckahoe, Congressman, Cuff, I give them the same, I  
 receive them the same.
And now it seems to me the beautiful uncut hair of graves. Tenderly will I use you curling grass, It may be you transpire from the breasts of young men, It may be if I had known them I would have loved them, It may be you are from old people, or from offspring taken soon  
 out of their mothers' laps,
And here you are the mothers' laps.
This grass is very dark to be from the white heads of old mothers, Darker than the colorless beards of old men, Dark to come from under the faint red roofs of mouths. O I perceive after all so many uttering tongues, And I perceive they do not come from the roofs of mouths for  
 nothing.
I wish I could translate the hints about the dead young men and  
 women,
  [ begin page 34 ]ppp.01663.042.jpg And the hints about old men and mothers, and the offspring taken  
 soon out of their laps.
What do you think has become of the young and old men? And what do you think has become of the women and chil- 
 dren?
They are alive and well somewhere, The smallest sprout shows there is really no death, And if ever there was it led forward life, and does not wait at the  
 end to arrest it,
And ceas'd the moment life appear'd.
All goes onward and outward, nothing collapses, And to die is different from what any one supposed, and luckier.

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Has any one supposed it lucky to be born? I hasten to inform him or her it is just as lucky to die, and I  
 know it.
I pass death with the dying and birth with the new-wash'd babe,  
 and am not contain'd between my hat and boots,
And peruse manifold objects, no two alike and every one good, The earth good and the stars good, and their adjuncts all good.
I am not an earth nor an adjunct of an earth, I am the mate and companion of people, all just as immortal and  
 fathomless as myself,
(They do not know how immortal, but I know.)
Every kind for itself and its own, for me mine male and female, For me those that have been boys and that love women, For me the man that is proud and feels how it stings to be  
 slighted,
For me the sweet-heart and the old maid, for me mothers and the  
 mothers of mothers,
For me lips that have smiled, eyes that have shed tears, For me children and the begetters of children.
Undrape! you are not guilty to me, nor stale nor discarded, I see through the broadcloth and gingham whether or no, And am around, tenacious, acquisitive, tireless, and cannot be  
 shaken away.
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8

The little one sleeps in its cradle, I lift the gauze and look a long time, and silently brush away flies  
 with my hand.
The youngster and the red-faced girl turn aside up the bushy hill, I peeringly view them from the top. The suicide sprawls on the bloody floor of the bedroom, I witness the corpse with its dabbled hair, I note where the pistol  
 has fallen.
The blab of the pave, tires of carts, sluff of boot-soles, talk of the  
 promenaders,
The heavy omnibus, the driver with his interrogating thumb, the  
 clank of the shod horses on the granite floor,
The snow-sleighs, clinking, shouted jokes, pelts of snow-balls, The hurrahs for popular favorites, the fury of rous'd mobs, The flap of the curtain'd litter, a sick man inside borne to the  
 hospital,
The meeting of enemies, the sudden oath, the blows and fall, The excited crowd, the policeman with his star quickly working  
 his passage to the centre of the crowd,
The impassive stones that receive and return so many echoes, What groans of over-fed or half-starv'd who fall sunstruck or in  
 fits,
What exclamations of women taken suddenly who hurry home and  
 give birth to babes,
What living and buried speech is always vibrating here, what howls  
 restrain'd by decorum,
Arrests of criminals, slights, adulterous offers made, acceptances,  
 rejections with convex lips,
I mind them or the show or resonance of them—I come and I  
 depart.

9

The big doors of the country barn stand open and ready, The dried grass of the harvest-time loads the slow-drawn wagon, The clear light plays on the brown gray and green intertinged, The armfuls are pack'd to the sagging mow. I am there, I help, I came stretch'd atop of the load, I felt its soft jolts, one leg reclined on the other, I jump from the cross-beams and seize the clover and timothy, And roll head over heels and tangle my hair full of wisps.
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10

Alone far in the wilds and mountains I hunt, Wandering amazed at my own lightness and glee, In the late afternoon choosing a safe spot to pass the night, Kindling a fire and broiling the fresh-kill'd game, Falling asleep on the gather'd leaves with my dog and gun by my  
 side.
The Yankee clipper is under her sky-sails, she cuts the sparkle and  
 scud,
My eyes settle the land, I bend at her prow or shout joyously from  
 the deck.
The boatmen and clam-diggers arose early and stopt for me, I tuck'd my trowser-ends in my boots and went and had a good  
 time;
You should have been with us that day round the chowder-kettle.
I saw the marriage of the trapper in the open air in the far west,  
 the bride was a red girl,
Her father and his friends sat near cross-legged and dumbly  
 smoking, they had moccasins to their feet and large thick  
 blankets hanging from their shoulders,
On a bank lounged the trapper, he was drest mostly in skins, his  
 luxuriant beard and curls protected his neck, he held his  
 bride by the hand,
She had long eyelashes, her head was bare, her coarse straight  
 locks descended upon her voluptuous limbs and reach'd to  
 her feet.
The runaway slave came to my house and stopt outside, I heard his motions crackling the twigs of the woodpile, Through the swung half-door of the kitchen I saw him limpsy and  
 weak,
And went where he sat on a log and led him in and assured him, And brought water and fill'd a tub for his sweated body and bruis'd  
 feet,
And gave him a room that enter'd from my own, and gave him  
 some coarse clean clothes,
And remember perfectly well his revolving eyes and his awkwardness, And remember putting plasters on the galls of his neck and ankles; He staid with me a week before he was recuperated and pass'd  
 north,
I had him sit next me at table, my fire-lock lean'd in the corner.
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Twenty-eight young men bathe by the shore, Twenty-eight young men and all so friendly; Twenty-eight years of womanly life and all so lonesome. She owns the fine house by the rise of the bank, She hides handsome and richly drest aft the blinds of the window. Which of the young men does she like the best? Ah the homeliest of them is beautiful to her. Where are you off to, lady? for I see you, You splash in the water there, yet stay stock still in your room. Dancing and laughing along the beach came the twenty-ninth bather, The rest did not see her, but she saw them and loved them. The beards of the young men glisten'd with wet, it ran from their  
 long hair,
Little streams pass'd all over their bodies.
An unseen hand also pass'd over their bodies, It descended tremblingly from their temples and ribs. The young men float on their backs, their white bellies bulge to  
 the sun, they do not ask who seizes fast to them,
They do not know who puffs and declines with pendant and bend- 
 ing arch,
They do not think whom they souse with spray.

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The butcher-boy puts off his killing-clothes, or sharpens his knife  
 at the stall in the market,
I loiter enjoying his repartee and his shuffle and break-down.
Blacksmiths with grimed and hairy chests environ the anvil, Each has his main-sledge, they are all out, there is a great heat in  
 the fire.
From the cinder-strew'd threshold I follow their movements, The lithe sheer of their waists plays even with their massive arms, Overhand the hammers swing, overhand so slow, overhand so  
 sure,
They do not hasten, each man hits in his place.
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13

The negro holds firmly the reins of his four horses, the block swags  
 underneath on its tied-over chain,
The negro that drives the long dray of the stone-yard, steady and  
 tall he stands pois'd on one leg on the string-piece,
His blue shirt exposes his ample neck and breast and loosens over  
 his hip-band,
His glance is calm and commanding, he tosses the slouch of his  
 hat away from his forehead,
The sun falls on his crispy hair and mustache, falls on the black  
 of his polish'd and perfect limbs.
I behold the picturesque giant and love him, and I do not stop  
 there,
I go with the team also.
In me the caresser of life wherever moving, backward as well as  
 forward sluing,
To niches aside and junior bending, not a person or object miss- 
 ing,
Absorbing all to myself and for this song.
Oxen that rattle the yoke and chain or halt in the leafy shade,  
 what is that you express in your eyes?
It seems to me more than all the print I have read in my life.
My tread scares the wood-drake and wood-duck on my distant and  
 day-long ramble,
They rise together, they slowly circle around.
I believe in those wing'd purposes, And acknowledge red, yellow, white, playing within me, And consider green and violet and the tufted crown intentional, And do not call the tortoise unworthy because she is not something  
 else,
And the jay in the woods never studied the gamut, yet trills pretty  
 well to me,
And the look of the bay mare shames silliness out of me.

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The wild gander leads his flock through the cool night, Ya-honk he says, and sounds it down to me like an invitation, The pert may suppose it meaningless, but I listening close, Find its purpose and place up there toward the wintry sky.   [ begin page 39 ]ppp.01663.047.jpg The sharp-hoof'd moose of the north, the cat on the house-sill,  
 the chickadee, the prairie-dog,
The litter of the grunting sow as they tug at her teats, The brood of the turkey-hen and she with her half-spread wings, I see in them and myself the same old law.
The press of my foot to the earth springs a hundred affections, They scorn the best I can do to relate them. I am enamour'd of growing out-doors, Of men that live among cattle or taste of the ocean or woods, Of the builders and steerers of ships and the wielders of axes and  
 mauls, and the drivers of horses,
I can eat and sleep with them week in and week out.
What is commonest, cheapest, nearest, easiest, is Me, Me going in for my chances, spending for vast returns, Adorning myself to bestow myself on the first that will take me, Not asking the sky to come down to my good will, Scattering it freely forever.

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The pure contralto sings in the organ loft, The carpenter dresses his plank, the tongue of his foreplane whistles  
 its wild ascending lisp,
The married and unmarried children ride home to their Thanks- 
 giving dinner,
The pilot seizes the king-pin, he heaves down with a strong arm, The mate stands braced in the whale-boat, lance and harpoon are  
 ready,
The duck-shooter walks by silent and cautious stretches, The deacons are ordain'd with cross'd hands at the altar, The spinning-girl retreats and advances to the hum of the big  
 wheel,
The farmer stops by the bars as he walks on a First-day loafe and  
 looks at the oats and rye,
The lunatic is carried at last to the asylum a confirm'd case, (He will never sleep any more as he did in the cot in his mother's  
 bed-room;)
The jour printer with gray head and gaunt jaws works at his case, He turns his quid of tobacco while his eyes blurr with the manu- 
 script;
The malform'd limbs are tied to the surgeon's table, What is removed drops horribly in a pail;   [ begin page 40 ]ppp.01663.048.jpg The quadroon girl is sold at the auction-stand, the drunkard nods  
 by the bar-room stove,
The machinist rolls up his sleeves, the policeman travels his beat,  
 the gate-keeper marks who pass,
The young fellow drives the express-wagon, (I love him, though  
 I do not know him;)
The half-breed straps on his light boots to compete in the race, The western turkey-shooting draws old and young, some lean on  
 their rifles, some sit on logs,
Out from the crowd steps the marksman, takes his position, levels  
 his piece;
The groups of newly-come immigrants cover the wharf or levee, As the woolly-pates hoe in the sugar-field, the overseer views them  
 from his saddle,
The bugle calls in the ball-room, the gentlemen run for their part- 
 ners, the dancers bow to each other,
The youth lies awake in the cedar-roof'd garret and harks to the  
 musical rain,
The Wolverine sets traps on the creek that helps fill the Huron, The squaw wrapt in her yellow-hemm'd cloth is offering moccasins  
 and bead-bags for sale,
The connoisseur peers along the exhibition-gallery with half-shut  
 eyes bent sideways,
As the deck-hands make fast the steamboat the plank is thrown for  
 the shore-going passengers,
The young sister holds out the skein while the elder sister winds it  
 off in a ball, and stops now and then for the knots,
The one-year wife is recovering and happy having a week ago  
 borne her first child,
The clean-hair'd Yankee girl works with her sewing-machine or in  
 the factory or mill,
The paving-man leans on his two-handed rammer, the reporter's  
 lead flies swiftly over the note-book, the sign-painter is  
 lettering with blue and gold,
The canal boy trots on the tow-path, the book-keeper counts at  
 his desk, the shoemaker waxes his thread,
The conductor beats time for the band and all the performers  
 follow him,
The child is baptized, the convert is making his first professions, The regatta is spread on the bay, the race is begun, (how the  
 white sails sparkle!)
The drover watching his drove sings out to them that would  
 stray,
The pedler sweats with his pack on his back, (the purchaser hig- 
 gling about the odd cent;)
  [ begin page 41 ]ppp.01663.049.jpg The bride unrumples her white dress, the minute-hand of the clock  
 moves slowly,
The opium-eater reclines with rigid head and just-open'd lips, The prostitute draggles her shawl, her bonnet bobs on her tipsy  
 and pimpled neck,
The crowd laugh at her blackguard oaths, the men jeer and wink  
 to each other,
(Miserable! I do not laugh at your oaths nor jeer you;) The President holding a cabinet council is surrounded by the great  
 Secretaries,
On the piazza walk three matrons stately and friendly with twined  
 arms,
The crew of the fish-smack pack repeated layers of halibut in the  
 hold,
The Missourian crosses the plains toting his wares and his cattle, As the fare-collector goes through the train he gives notice by the  
 jingling of loose change,
The floor-men are laying the floor, the tinners are tinning the roof,  
 the masons are calling for mortar,
In single file each shouldering his hod pass onward the laborers; Seasons pursuing each other the indescribable crowd is gather'd,  
 it is the fourth of Seventh-month, (what salutes of cannon  
 and small arms!)
Seasons pursuing each other the plougher ploughs, the mower mows,  
 and the winter-grain falls in the ground;
Off on the lakes the pike-fisher watches and waits by the hole in  
 the frozen surface,
The stumps stand thick round the clearing, the squatter strikes  
 deep with his axe,
Flatboatmen make fast towards dusk near the cotton-wood or  
 pecan-trees,
Coon-seekers go through the regions of the Red river or through  
 those drain'd by the Tennessee, or through those of the  
 Arkansas,
Torches shine in the dark that hangs on the Chattahooche or  
 Altamahaw,
Patriarchs sit at supper with sons and grandsons and great-grand- 
 sons around them,
In walls of adobie, in canvas tents, rest hunters and trappers after  
 their day's sport,
The city sleeps and the country sleeps, The living sleep for their time, the dead sleep for their time, The old husband sleeps by his wife and the young husband sleeps  
 by his wife;
And these tend inward to me, and I tend outward to them,   [ begin page 42 ]ppp.01663.050.jpg And such as it is to be of these more or less I am, And of these one and all I weave the song of myself.

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I am of old and young, of the foolish as much as the wise, Regardless of others, ever regardful of others, Maternal as well as paternal, a child as well as a man, Stuff'd with the stuff that is coarse and stuff'd with the stuff that  
 is fine,
One of the Nation of many nations, the smallest the same and the  
 largest the same,
A Southerner soon as a Northerner, a planter nonchalant and  
 hospitable down by the Oconee I live,
A Yankee bound my own way ready for trade, my joints the  
 limberest joints on earth and the sternest joints on  
 earth,
A Kentuckian walking the vale of the Elkhorn in my deer-skin  
 leggings, a Louisianian or Georgian,
A boatman overlakes or bays or along coasts, a Hoosier, Badger,  
 Buckeye;
At home on Kanadian snow-shoes or up in the bush, or with  
 fishermen off Newfoundland,
At home in the fleet of ice-boats, sailing with the rest and tack- 
 ing,
At home on the hills of Vermont or in the woods of Maine, or the  
 Texan ranch,
Comrade of Californians, comrade of free North-Westerners, (lov- 
 ing their big proportions,)
Comrade of raftsmen and coalmen, comrade of all who shake  
 hands and welcome to drink and meat,
A learner with the simplest, a teacher of the thoughtfullest, A novice beginning yet experient of myriads of seasons, Of every hue and caste am I, of every rank and religion, A farmer, mechanic, artist, gentleman, sailor, quaker, Prisoner, fancy-man, rowdy, lawyer, physician, priest.
I resist any thing better than my own diversity, Breathe the air but leave plenty after me, And am not stuck up, and am in my place. (The moth and the fish-eggs are in their place, The bright suns I see and the dark suns I cannot see are in their  
 place,
The palpable is in its place and the impalpable is in its place.)
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These are really the thoughts of all men in all ages and lands, they  
 are not original with me,
If they are not yours as much as mine they are nothing, or next  
 to nothing,
If they are not the riddle and the untying of the riddle they are nothing, If they are not just as close as they are distant they are  
 nothing.
This is the grass that grows wherever the land is and the water is, This the common air that bathes the globe.

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With music strong I come, with my cornets and my drums, I play not marches for accepted victors only, I play marches for  
 conquer'd and slain persons.
Have you heard that it was good to gain the day? I also say it is good to fall, battles are lost in the same spirit in  
 which they are won.
I beat and pound for the dead, I blow through my embouchures my loudest and gayest for  
 them.
Vivas to those who have fail'd! And to those whose war-vessels sank in the sea! And to those themselves who sank in the sea! And to all generals that lost engagements, and all overcome heroes! And the numberless unknown heroes equal to the greatest heroes  
 known!

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This is the meal equally set, this the meat for natural hunger, It is for the wicked just the same as the righteous, I make appoint- 
 ments with all,
I will not have a single person slighted or left away, The kept-woman, sponger, thief, are hereby invited, The heavy-lipp'd slave is invited, the venerealee is invited; There shall be no difference between them and the rest.
This is the press of a bashful hand, this the float and odor of hair, This the touch of my lips to yours, this the murmur of yearning, This the far-off depth and height reflecting my own face, This the thoughtful merge of myself, and the outlet again.   [ begin page 44 ]ppp.01663.050.jpg Do you guess I have some intricate purpose? Well I have, for the Fourth-month showers have, and the mica on  
 the side of a rock has.
Do you take it I would astonish? Does the daylight astonish? does the early redstart twittering  
 through the woods?
Do I astonish more than they?
This hour I tell things in confidence, I might not tell everybody, but I will tell you.

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Who goes there? hankering, gross, mystical, nude; How is it I extract strength from the beef I eat? What is a man anyhow? what am I? what are you? All I mark as my own you shall offset it with your own, Else it were time lost listening to me. I do not snivel that snivel the world over, That months are vacuums and the ground but wallow and filth. Whimpering and truckling fold with powders for invalids, con- 
 formity goes to the fourth-remov'd,
I wear my hat as I please indoors or out.
Why should I pray? why should I venerate and be ceremonious? Having pried through the strata, analyzed to a hair, counsel'd with  
 doctors and calculated close,
I find no sweeter fat than sticks to my own bones.
In all people I see myself, none more and not one a barley-corn  
 less,
And the good or bad I say of myself I say of them.
I know I am solid and sound, To me the converging objects of the universe perpetually flow, All are written to me, and I must get what the writing means. I know I am deathless, I know this orbit of mine cannot be swept by a carpenter's  
 compass,
  [ begin page 45 ]ppp.01663.051.jpg I know I shall not pass like a child's carlacue cut with a burnt  
 stick at night.
I know I am august, I do not trouble my spirit to vindicate itself or be understood, I see that the elementary laws never apologize, (I reckon I behave no prouder than the level I plant my house by,  
 after all.)
I exist as I am, that is enough, If no other in the world be aware I sit content, And if each and all be aware I sit content. One world is aware and by far the largest to me, and that is my- 
 self,
And whether I come to my own to-day or in ten thousand or ten  
 million years,
I can cheerfully take it now, or with equal cheerfulness I can wait.
My foothold is tenon'd and mortis'd in granite, I laugh at what you call dissolution, And I know the amplitude of time.

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I am the poet of the Body and I am the poet of the Soul, The pleasures of heaven are with me and the pains of hell are  
 with me,
The first I graft and increase upon myself, the latter I translate  
 into a new tongue.
I am the poet of the woman the same as the man, And I say it is as great to be a woman as to be a man, And I say there is nothing greater than the mother of men. I chant the chant of dilation or pride, We have had ducking and deprecating about enough, I show that size is only development. Have you outstript the rest? are you the President? It is a trifle, they will more than arrive there every one, and still  
 pass on.
I am he that walks with the tender and growing night, I call to the earth and sea half-held by the night.   [ begin page 46 ]ppp.01663.052.jpg Press close bare-bosom'd night—press close magnetic nourishing  
 night!
Night of south winds—night of the large few stars! Still nodding night—mad naked summer night.
Smile O voluptuous cool-breath'd earth! Earth of the slumbering and liquid trees! Earth of departed sunset—earth of the mountains misty-topt! Earth of the vitreous pour of the full moon just tinged with blue! Earth of shine and dark mottling the tide of the river! Earth of the limpid gray of clouds brighter and clearer for my  
 sake!
Far-swooping elbow'd earth—rich apple-blossom'd earth! Smile, for your lover comes.
Prodigal, you have given me love—therefore I to you give love! O unspeakable passionate love.

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You sea! I resign myself to you also—I guess what you mean, I behold from the beach your crooked inviting fingers, I believe you refuse to go back without feeling of me, We must have a turn together, I undress, hurry me out of sight of  
 the land,
Cushion me soft, rock me in billowy drowse, Dash me with amorous wet, I can repay you.
Sea of stretch'd ground-swells, Sea breathing broad and convulsive breaths, Sea of the brine of life and of unshovell'd yet always-ready graves, Howler and scooper of storms, capricious and dainty sea, I am integral with you, I too am of one phase and of all phases. Partaker of influx and efflux I, extoller of hate and conciliation, Extoller of amies and those that sleep in each others' arms. I am he attesting sympathy, (Shall I make my list of things in the house and skip the house  
 that supports them?)
I am not the poet of goodness only, I do not decline to be the  
 poet of wickedness also.
What blurt is this about virtue and about vice? Evil propels me and reform of evil propels me, I stand indifferent,   [ begin page 47 ]ppp.01663.053.jpg My gait is no fault-finder's or rejecter's gait, I moisten the roots of all that has grown. Did you fear some scrofula out of the unflagging pregnancy? Did you guess the celestial laws are yet to be work'd over and  
 rectified?
I find one side a balance and the antipodal side a balance, Soft doctrine as steady help as stable doctrine, Thoughts and deeds of the present our rouse and early start. This minute that comes to me over the past decillions, There is no better than it and now. What behaved well in the past or behaves well to-day is not such a  
 wonder,
The wonder is always and always how there can be a mean man  
 or an infidel.

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Endless unfolding of words of ages! And mine a word of the modern, the word En-Masse. A word of the faith that never balks, Here or henceforward it is all the same to me, I accept Time abso- 
 lutely.
It alone is without flaw, it alone rounds and completes all, That mystic baffling wonder alone completes all. I accept Reality and dare not question it, Materialism first and last imbuing. Hurrah for positive science! long live exact demonstration! Fetch stonecrop mixt with cedar and branches of lilac, This is the lexicographer, this the chemist, this made a grammar  
 of the old cartouches,
These mariners put the ship through dangerous unknown seas. This is the geologist, this works with the scalpel, and this is a  
 mathematician.
Gentlemen, to you the first honors always! Your facts are useful, and yet they are not my dwelling, I but enter by them to an area of my dwelling.   [ begin page 48 ]ppp.01663.054.jpg Less the reminders of properties told my words, And more the reminders they of life untold, and of freedom and  
 extrication,
And make short account of neuters and geldings, and favor men  
 and women fully equipt,
And beat the gong of revolt, and stop with fugitives and them that  
 plot and conspire.

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Walt Whitman, a kosmos, of Manhattan the son, Turbulent, fleshy, sensual, eating, drinking and breeding, No sentimentalist, no stander above men and women or apart from  
 them,
No more modest than immodest.
Unscrew the locks from the doors! Unscrew the doors themselves from their jambs! Whoever degrades another degrades me, And whatever is done or said returns at last to me. Through me the afflatus surging and surging, through me the cur- 
 rent and index.
I speak the pass-word primeval, I give the sign of democracy, By God! I will accept nothing which all cannot have their coun- 
 terpart of on the same terms.
Through me many long dumb voices, Voices of the interminable generations of prisoners and slaves, Voices of the diseas'd and despairing and of thieves and dwarfs, Voices of cycles of preparation and accretion, And of the threads that connect the stars, and of wombs and of  
 the father-stuff,
And of the rights of them the others are down upon, Of the deform'd, trivial, flat, foolish, despised, Fog in the air, beetles rolling balls of dung.
Through me forbidden voices, Voices of sexes and lusts, voices veil'd and I remove the veil, Voices indecent by me clarified and transfigur'd. I do not press my fingers across my mouth, I keep as delicate around the bowels as around the head and heart, Copulation is no more rank to me than death is.   [ begin page 49 ]ppp.01663.055.jpg I believe in the flesh and the appetites, Seeing, hearing, feeling, are miracles, and each part and tag of me  
 is a miracle.
Divine am I inside and out, and I make holy whatever I touch or  
 am touch'd from,
The scent of these arm-pits aroma finer than prayer, This head more than churches, bibles, and all the creeds.
If I worship one thing more than another it shall be the spread of  
 my own body, or any part of it,
Translucent mould of me it shall be you! Shaded ledges and rests it shall be you! Firm masculine colter it shall be you! Whatever goes to the tilth of me it shall be you! You my rich blood! your milky stream pale strippings of my life! Breast that presses against other breasts it shall be you! My brain it shall be your occult convolutions! Root of wash'd sweet-flag! timorous pond-snipe! nest of guarded  
 duplicate eggs! it shall be you!
Mix'd tussled hay of head, beard, brawn, it shall be you! Trickling sap of maple, fibre of manly wheat, it shall be you! Sun so generous it shall be you! Vapors lighting and shading my face it shall be you! You sweaty brooks and dews it shall be you! Winds whose soft-tickling genitals rub against me it shall be you! Broad muscular fields, branches of live oak, loving lounger in my  
 winding paths, it shall be you!
Hands I have taken, face I have kiss'd, mortal I have ever  
 touch'd, it shall be you.
I dote on myself, there is that lot of me and all so luscious, Each moment and whatever happens thrills me with joy, I cannot tell how my ankles bend, nor whence the cause of my  
 faintest wish,
Nor the cause of the friendship I emit, nor the cause of the friend- 
 ship I take again.
That I walk up my stoop, I pause to consider if it really be, A morning-glory at my window satisfies me more than the meta- 
 physics of books.
To behold the day-break! The little light fades the immense and diaphanous shadows, The air tastes good to my palate.   [ begin page 50 ]ppp.01663.056.jpg Hefts of the moving world at innocent gambols silently rising  
 freshly exuding,
Scooting obliquely high and low.
Something I cannot see puts upward libidinous prongs, Seas of bright juice suffuse heaven. The earth by the sky staid with, the daily close of their junction, The heav'd challenge from the east that moment over my head, The mocking taunt, See then whether you shall be master!

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Dazzling and tremendous how quick the sun-rise would kill me, If I could not now and always send sun-rise out of me. We also ascend dazzling and tremendous as the sun, We found our own O my soul in the calm and cool of the day- 
 break.
My voice goes after what my eyes cannot reach, With the twirl of my tongue I encompass worlds and volumes of  
 worlds.
Speech is the twin of my vision, it is unequal to measure itself, It provokes me forever, it says sarcastically, Walt you contain enough, why don't you let it out then? Come now I will not be tantalized, you conceive too much of  
 articulation,
Do you not know O speech how the buds beneath you are folded? Waiting in gloom, protected by frost, The dirt receding before my prophetical screams, I underlying causes to balance them at last, My knowledge my live parts, it keeping tally with the meaning of  
 all things,
Happiness, (which whoever hears me let him or her set out in  
 search of this day.)
My final merit I refuse you, I refuse putting from me what I really  
 am,
Encompass worlds, but never try to encompass me, I crowd your sleekest and best by simply looking toward you.
Writing and talk do not prove me, I carry the plenum of proof and every thing else in my face, With the hush of my lips I wholly confound the skeptic.
  [ begin page 51 ]ppp.01663.057.jpg

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Now I will do nothing but listen, To accrue what I hear into this song, to let sounds contribute  
 toward it.
I hear bravuras of birds, bustle of growing wheat, gossip of flames,  
 clack of sticks cooking my meals,
I hear the sound I love, the sound of the human voice, I hear all sounds running together, combined, fused or following, Sounds of the city and sounds out of the city, sounds of the day  
 and night,
Talkative young ones to those that like them, the loud laugh of  
 work-people at their meals,
The angry base of disjointed friendship, the faint tones of the sick, The judge with hands tight to the desk, his pallid lips pronoun- 
 cing a death-sentence,
The heave'e'yo of stevedores unlading ships by the wharves, the  
 refrain of the anchor-lifters,
The ring of alarm-bells, the cry of fire, the whirr of swift-streak- 
 ing engines and hose-carts with premonitory tinkles and  
 color'd lights,
The steam-whistle, the solid roll of the train of approaching cars, The slow march play'd at the head of the association marching  
 two and two,
(They go to guard some corpse, the flag-tops are draped with  
 black muslin.)
I hear the violoncello, ('tis the young man's heart's complaint,) I hear the key'd cornet, it glides quickly in through my ears, It shakes mad-sweet pangs through my belly and breast. I hear the chorus, it is a grand opera, Ah this indeed is music—this suits me. A tenor large and fresh as the creation fills me, The orbic flex of his mouth is pouring and filling me full. I hear the train'd soprano (what work with hers is this?) The orchestra whirls me wider than Uranus flies, It wrenches such ardors from me I did not know I possess'd  
 them,
It sails me, I dab with bare feet, they are lick'd by the indolent  
 waves,
I am cut by bitter and angry hail, I lose my breath,   [ begin page 52 ]ppp.01663.058.jpg Steep'd amid honey'd morphine, my windpipe throttled in fakes  
 of death,
At length let up again to feel the puzzle of puzzles, And that we call Being.

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To be in any form, what is that? (Round and round we go, all of us, and ever come back thither,) If nothing lay more develop'd the quahaug in its callous shell were  
 enough.
Mine is no callous shell, I have instant conductors all over me whether I pass or stop, They seize every object and lead it harmlessly through me. I merely stir, press, feel with my fingers, and am happy, To touch my person to some one else's is about as much as I can  
 stand.

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Is this then a touch? quivering me to a new identity, Flames and ether making a rush for my veins, Treacherous tip of me reaching and crowding to help them, My flesh and blood playing out lightning to strike what is hardly  
 different from myself,
On all sides prurient provokers stiffening my limbs, Straining the udder of my heart for its withheld drip, Behaving licentious toward me, taking no denial, Depriving me of my best as for a purpose, Unbuttoning my clothes, holding me by the bare waist, Deluding my confusion with the calm of the sunlight and pasture- 
 fields,
Immodestly sliding the fellow-senses away, They bribed to swap off with touch and go and graze at the edges  
 of me,
No consideration, no regard for my draining strength or my anger, Fetching the rest of the herd around to enjoy them a while, Then all uniting to stand on a headland and worry me.
The sentries desert every other part of me, They have left me helpless to a red marauder, They all come to the headland to witness and assist against me. I am given up by traitors, I talk wildly, I have lost my wits, I and nobody else am the  
 greatest traitor,
  [ begin page 53 ]ppp.01663.059.jpg I went myself first to the headland, my own hands carried me  
 there.
You villain touch! what are you doing? my breath is tight in its  
 throat,
Unclench your floodgates, you are too much for me.

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Blind loving wrestling touch, sheath'd hooded sharp-tooth'd  
 touch!
Did it make you ache so, leaving me?
Parting track'd by arriving, perpetual payment of perpetual loan, Rich showering rain, and recompense richer afterward. Sprouts take and accumulate, stand by the curb prolific and vital, Landscapes projected masculine, full-sized and golden.

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All truths wait in all things, They neither hasten their own delivery nor resist it, They do not need the obstetric forceps of the surgeon, The insignificant is as big to me as any, (What is less or more than a touch?) Logic and sermons never convince, The damp of the night drives deeper into my soul. (Only what proves itself to every man and woman is so, Only what nobody denies is so.) A minute and a drop of me settle my brain, I believe the soggy clods shall become lovers and lamps, And a compend of compends is the meat of a man or woman, And a summit and flower there is the feeling they have for each other, And they are to branch boundlessly out of that lesson until it  
 becomes omnific,
And until one and all shall delight us, and we them.

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I believe a leaf of grass is no less than the journey-work of the stars, And the pismire is equally perfect, and a grain of sand, and the  
 egg of the wren,
  [ begin page 54 ]ppp.01663.060.jpg And the tree-toad is a chef-d'oeuvre for the highest, And the running blackberry would adorn the parlors of heaven, And the narrowest hinge in my hand puts to scorn all machinery, And the cow crunching with depress'd head surpasses any statue, And a mouse is miracle enough to stagger sextillions of infidels.
I find I incorporate gneiss, coal, long-threaded moss, fruits, grains,  
 esculent roots,
And am stucco'd with quadrupeds and birds all over, And have distanced what is behind me for good reasons, But call any thing back again when I desire it.
In vain the speeding or shyness, In vain the plutonic rocks send their old heat against my approach, In vain the mastodon retreats beneath its own powder'd bones, In vain objects stand leagues off and assume manifold shapes, In vain the ocean settling in hollows and the great monsters lying  
 low,
In vain the buzzard houses herself with the sky, In vain the snake slides through the creepers and logs, In vain the elk takes to the inner passes of the woods, In vain the razor-bill'd auk sails far north to Labrador, I follow quickly, I ascend to the nest in the fissure of the cliff.

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I think I could turn and live with animals, they are so placid and  
 self-contain'd,
I stand and look at them long and long.
They do not sweat and whine about their condition, They do not lie awake in the dark and weep for their sins, They do not make me sick discussing their duty to God, Not one is dissatisfied, not one is demented with the mania of  
 owning things,
Not one kneels to another, nor to his kind that lived thousands of  
 years ago,
Not one is respectable or unhappy over the whole earth.
So they show their relations to me and I accept them, They bring me tokens of myself, they evince them plainly in their  
 possession.
I wonder where they get those tokens, Did I pass that way huge times ago and negligently drop them?   [ begin page 55 ]ppp.01663.061.jpg Myself moving forward then and now and forever, Gathering and showing more always and with velocity, Infinite and omnigenous, and the like of these among them, Not too exclusive toward the reachers of my remembrancers, Picking out here one that I love, and now go with him on brotherly  
 terms.
A gigantic beauty of a stallion, fresh and responsive to my caresses, Head high in the forehead, wide between the ears, Limbs glossy and supple, tail dusting the ground, Eyes full of sparkling wickedness, ears finely cut, flexibly moving. His nostrils dilate as my heels embrace him, His well-built limbs tremble with pleasure as we race around and  
 return.
I but use you a minute, then I resign you, stallion, Why do I need your paces when I myself out-gallop them? Even as I stand or sit passing faster than you.

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Space and Time! now I see it is true, what I guess'd at, What I guess'd when I loaf'd on the grass, What I guess'd while I lay alone in my bed, And again as I walk'd the beach under the paling stars of the  
 morning.
My ties and ballasts leave me, my elbows rest in sea-gaps, I skirt sierras, my palms cover continents, I am afoot with my vision. By the city's quadrangular houses—in log huts, camping with  
 lumbermen,
Along the ruts of the turnpike, along the dry gulch and rivulet bed, Weeding my onion-patch or hoeing rows of carrots and parsnips,  
 crossing savannas, trailing in forests,
Prospecting, gold-digging, girdling the trees of a new purchase, Scorch'd ankle-deep by the hot sand, hauling my boat down the  
 shallow river,
Where the panther walks to and fro on a limb overhead, where  
 the buck turns furiously at the hunter,
Where the rattlesnake suns his flabby length on a rock, where the  
 otter is feeding on fish,
Where the alligator in his tough pimples sleeps by the bayou,   [ begin page 56 ]ppp.01663.062.jpg Where the black bear is searching for roots or honey, where the  
 beaver pats the mud with his paddle-shaped tail;
Over the growing sugar, over the yellow-flower'd cotton plant, over  
 the rice in its low moist field,
Over the sharp-peak'd farm house, with its scallop'd scum and  
 slender shoots from the gutters,
Over the western persimmon, over the long-leav'd corn, over the  
 delicate blue-flower flax,
Over the white and brown buckwheat, a hummer and buzzer there  
 with the rest,
Over the dusky green of the rye as it ripples and shades in the  
 breeze;
Scaling mountains, pulling myself cautiously up, holding on by low  
 scragged limbs,
Walking the path worn in the grass and beat through the leaves of  
 the brush,
Where the quail is whistling betwixt the woods and the wheat-lot, Where the bat flies in the Seventh-month eve, where the great gold- 
 bug drops through the dark,
Where the brook puts out of the roots of the old tree and flows to  
 the meadow,
Where cattle stand and shake away flies with the tremulous shud- 
 dering of their hides,
Where the cheese-cloth hangs in the kitchen, where andirons  
 straddle the hearth-slab, where cobwebs fall in festoons  
 from the rafters;
Where trip-hammers crash, where the press is whirling its cylinders, Wherever the human heart beats with terrible throes under its  
 ribs,
Where the pear-shaped balloon is floating aloft, (floating in it my- 
 self and looking composedly down,)
Where the life-car is drawn on the slip-noose, where the heat  
 hatches pale-green eggs in the dented sand,
Where the she-whale swims with her calf and never forsakes it, Where the steam-ship trails hind-ways its long pennant of smoke, Where the fin of the shark cuts like a black chip out of the water, Where the half-burn'd brig is riding on unknown currents, Where shells grow to her slimy deck, where the dead are corrupt- 
 ing below;
Where the dense-starr'd flag is borne at the head of the regiments, Approaching Manhattan up by the long-stretching island, Under Niagara, the cataract falling like a veil over my countenance, Upon a door-step, upon the horse-block of hard wood outside, Upon the race-course, or enjoying picnics or jigs or a good game  
 of base-ball,
  [ begin page 57 ]ppp.01663.063.jpg At he-festivals, with blackguard gibes, ironical license, bull-dances,  
 drinking, laughter,
At the cider-mill tasting the sweets of the brown mash, sucking  
 the juice through a straw,
At apple-peelings wanting kisses for all the red fruit I find, At musters, beach-parties, friendly bees, huskings, house-raisings; Where the mocking-bird sounds his delicious gurgles, cackles,  
 screams, weeps,
Where the hay-rick stands in the barn-yard, where the dry-stalks  
 are scatter'd, where the brood-cow waits in the hovel,
Where the bull advances to do his masculine work, where the stud  
 to the mare, where the cock is treading the hen,
Where the heifers browse, where geese nip their food with short  
 jerks,
Where sun-down shadows lengthen over the limitless and lonesome  
 prairie,
Where herds of buffalo make a crawling spread of the square  
 miles far and near,
Where the humming-bird shimmers, where the neck of the long- 
 lived swan is curving and winding,
Where the laughing-gull scoots by the shore, where she laughs her  
 near-human laugh,
Where bee-hives range on a gray bench in the garden half hid by  
 the high weeds,
Where band-neck'd partridges roost in a ring on the ground with  
 their heads out,
Where burial coaches enter the arch'd gates of a cemetery, Where winter wolves bark amid wastes of snow and icicled trees, Where the yellow-crown'd heron comes to the edge of the marsh  
 at night and feeds upon small crabs,
Where the splash of swimmers and divers cools the warm noon, Where the katy-did works her chromatic reed on the walnut-tree  
 over the well,
Through patches of citrons and cucumbers with silver-wired leaves, Through the salt-lick or orange glade, or under conical firs, Through the gymnasium, through the curtain'd saloon, through the  
 office or public hall;
Pleas'd with the native and pleas'd with the foreign, pleas'd with  
 the new and old,
Pleas'd with the homely woman as well as the handsome, Pleas'd with the quakeress as she puts off her bonnet and talks  
 melodiously,
Pleas'd with the tune of the choir of the whitewash'd church, Pleas'd with the earnest words of the sweating Methodist preach- 
 er, impress'd seriously at the camp-meeting;
  [ begin page 58 ]ppp.01663.064.jpg Looking in at the shop-windows of Broadway the whole forenoon,  
 flatting the flesh of my nose on the thick plate glass,
Wandering the same afternoon with my face turn'd up to the  
 clouds, or down a lane or along the beach,
My right and left arms round the sides of two friends, and I in the  
 middle;
Coming home with the silent and dark-cheek'd bush-boy, (behind  
 me he rides at the drape of the day,)
Far from the settlements studying the print of animals' feet, or  
 the moccasin print,
By the cot in the hospital reaching lemonade to a feverish patient, Nigh the coffin'd corpse when all is still, examining with a candle; Voyaging to every port to dicker and adventure, Hurrying with the modern crowd as eager and fickle as any, Hot toward one I hate, ready in my madness to knife him, Solitary at midnight in my back yard, my thoughts gone from me  
 a long while,
Walking the old hills of Judaea with the beautiful gentle God by  
 my side,
Speeding through space, speeding through heaven and the stars, Speeding amid the seven satellites and the broad ring, and the  
 diameter of eighty thousand miles,
Speeding with tail'd meteors, throwing fire-balls like the rest, Carrying the crescent child that carries its own full mother in  
 its belly,
Storming, enjoying, planning, loving, cautioning, Backing and filling, appearing and disappearing, I tread day and night such roads.
I visit the orchards of spheres and look at the product, And look at quintillions ripen'd and look at quintillions green. I fly those flights of a fluid and swallowing soul, My course runs below the soundings of plummets. I help myself to material and immaterial, No guard can shut me off, no law prevent me. I anchor my ship for a little while only, My messengers continually cruise away or bring their returns to me. I go hunting polar furs and the seal, leaping chasms with a pike- 
 pointed staff, clinging to topples of brittle and blue.
I ascend to the foretruck,   [ begin page 59 ]ppp.01663.065.jpg I take my place late at night in the crow's-nest, We sail the arctic sea, it is plenty light enough, Through the clear atmosphere I stretch around on the wonderful  
 beauty,
The enormous masses of ice pass me and I pass them, the scenery  
 is plain in all directions,
The white-topt mountains show in the distance, I fling out my  
 fancies toward them,
We are approaching some great battle-field in which we are soon  
 to be engaged,
We pass the colossal outposts of the encampment, we pass with  
 still feet and caution,
Or we are entering by the suburbs some vast and ruin'd city, The blocks and fallen architecture more than all the living cities  
 of the globe.
I am a free companion, I bivouac by invading watchfires, I turn the bridegroom out of bed and stay with the bride myself, I tighten her all night to my thighs and lips. My voice is the wife's voice, the screech by the rail of the stairs, They fetch my man's body up dripping and drown'd. I understand the large hearts of heroes, The courage of present times and all times, How the skipper saw the crowded and rudderless wreck of the  
 steam-ship, and Death chasing it up and down the storm,
How he knuckled tight and gave not back an inch, and was faith  
 ful of days and faithful of nights,
And chalk'd in large letters on a board, Be of good cheer, we will  
  not desert you;
How he follow'd with them and tack'd with them three days and  
 would not give it up,
How he saved the drifting company at last, How the lank loose-gown'd women look'd when boated from the  
 side of their prepared graves,
How the silent old-faced infants and the lifted sick, and the sharp- 
 lipp'd unshaved men;
All this I swallow, it tastes good, I like it well, it becomes mine, I am the man, I suffer'd, I was there.
The disdain and calmness of martyrs, The mother of old, condemn'd for a witch, burnt with dry wood,  
 her children gazing on,
The hounded slave that flags in the race, leans by the fence, blow- 
 ing, cover'd with sweat,
  [ begin page 60 ]ppp.01663.066.jpg The twinges that sting like needles his legs and neck, the mur- 
 derous buckshot and the bullets,
All these I feel or am.
I am the hounded slave, I wince at the bite of the dogs, Hell and despair are upon me, crack and again crack the marks- 
 men,
I clutch the rails of the fence, my gore dribs, thinn'd with the  
 ooze of my skin,
I fall on the weeds and stones, The riders spur their unwilling horses, haul close, Taunt my dizzy ears and beat me violently over the head with  
 whip-stocks.
Agonies are one of my changes of garments, I do not ask the wounded person how he feels, I myself become  
 the wounded person,
My hurts turn livid upon me as I lean on a cane and observe.
I am the mash'd fireman with breast-bone broken, Tumbling walls buried me in their debris, Heat and smoke I inspired, I heard the yelling shouts of my com- 
 rades,
I heard the distant click of their picks and shovels, They have clear'd the beams away, they tenderly lift me forth.
I lie in the night air in my red shirt, the pervading hush is for my  
 sake,
Painless after all I lie exhausted but not so unhappy, White and beautiful are the faces around me, the heads are bared  
 of their fire-caps,
The kneeling crowd fades with the light of the torches.
Distant and dead resuscitate, They show as the dial or move as the hands of me, I am the clock  
 myself.
I am an old artillerist, I tell of my fort's bombardment, I am there again. Again the long roll of the drummers, Again the attacking cannon, mortars, Again to my listening ears the cannon responsive. I take part, I see and hear the whole,   [ begin page 61 ]ppp.01663.067.jpg The cries, curses, roar, the plaudits for well-aim'd shots, The ambulanza slowly passing trailing its red drip, Workmen searching after damages, making indispensable repairs, The fall of grenades through the rent roof, the fan-shaped explo-  
 sion,
The whizz of limbs, heads, stone, wood, iron, high in the air.
Again gurgles the mouth of my dying general, he furiously waves  
 with his hand,
He gasps through the clot Mind not me—mind—the entrench-  
  ments.

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Now I tell what I knew in Texas in my early youth, (I tell not the fall of Alamo, Not one escaped to tell the fall of Alamo, The hundred and fifty are dumb yet at Alamo,) 'Tis the tale of the murder in cold blood of four hundred and  
 twelve young men.
Retreating they had form'd in a hollow square with their baggage  
 for breastworks,
Nine hundred lives out of the surrounding enemy's, nine times  
 their number, was the price they took in advance,
Their colonel was wounded and their ammunition gone, They treated for an honorable capitulation, receiv'd writing and  
 seal, gave up their arms and march'd back prisoners of war.
They were the glory of the race of rangers, Matchless with horse, rifle, song, supper, courtship, Large, turbulent, generous, handsome, proud, and affectionate, Bearded, sunburnt, drest in the free costume of hunters, Not a single one over thirty years of age. The second First-day morning they were brought out in squads  
 and massacred, it was beautiful early summer,
The work commenced about five o'clock and was over by eight.
None obey'd the command to kneel, Some made a mad and helpless rush, some stood stark and  
 straight,
A few fell at once, shot in the temple or heart, the living and dead  
 lay together,
The maim'd and mangled dug in the dirt, the new-comers saw  
 them there,
  [ begin page 62 ]ppp.01663.068.jpg Some half-kill'd attempted to crawl away, These were despatch'd with bayonets or batter'd with the blunts  
 of muskets,
A youth not seventeen years old seiz'd his assassin till two more  
 came to release him,
The three were all torn and cover'd with the boy's blood.
At eleven o'clock began the burning of the bodies; That is the tale of the murder of the four hundred and twelve  
 young men.

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Would you hear of an old-time sea-fight? Would you learn who won by the light of the moon and stars? List to the yarn, as my grandmother's father the sailor told it to me. Our foe was no skulk in his ship I tell you, (said he,) His was the surly English pluck, and there is no tougher or truer,  
 and never was, and never will be;
Along the lower'd eve he came horribly raking us.
We closed with him, the yards entangled, the cannon touch'd, My captain lash'd fast with his own hands. We had receiv'd some eighteen pound shots under the water, On our lower-gun-deck two large pieces had burst at the first fire,  
 killing all around and blowing up overhead.
Fighting at sun-down, fighting at dark, Ten o'clock at night, the full moon well up, our leaks on the gain,  
 and five feet of water reported,
The master-at-arms loosing the prisoners confined in the after-hold  
 to give them a chance for themselves.
The transit to and from the magazine is now stopt by the sentinels, They see so many strange faces they do not know whom to trust. Our frigate takes fire, The other asks if we demand quarter? If our colors are struck and the fighting done? Now I laugh content, for I hear the voice of my little captain, We have not struck, he composedly cries, we have just begun our  
  part of the fighting.
  [ begin page 63 ]ppp.01663.069.jpg Only three guns are in use, One is directed by the captain himself against the enemy's main- 
 mast,
Two well serv'd with grape and canister silence his musketry and  
 clear his decks.
The tops alone second the fire of this little battery, especially the  
 main-top,
They hold out bravely during the whole of the action.
Not a moment's cease, The leaks gain fast on the pumps, the fire eats toward the powder- 
 magazine.
One of the pumps has been shot away, it is generally thought we  
 are sinking.
Serene stands the little captain, He is not hurried, his voice is neither high nor low, His eyes give more light to us than our battle-lanterns. Toward twelve there in the beams of the moon they surrender to  
 us.

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Stretch'd and still lies the midnight, Two great hulls motionless on the breast of the darkness, Our vessel riddled and slowly sinking, preparations to pass to the  
 one we have conquer'd,
The captain on the quarter-deck coldly giving his orders through  
 a countenance white as a sheet,
Near by the corpse of the child that serv'd in the cabin, The dead face of an old salt with long white hair and carefully  
 curl'd whiskers,
The flames spite of all that can be done flickering aloft and below, The husky voices of the two or three officers yet fit for duty, Formless stacks of bodies and bodies by themselves, dabs of flesh  
 upon the masts and spars,
Cut of cordage, dangle of rigging, slight shock of the soothe of  
 waves,
Black and impassive guns, litter of powder-parcels, strong scent, A few large stars overhead, silent and mournful shining, Delicate sniffs of sea-breeze, smells of sedgy grass and fields by the  
 shore, death-messages given in charge to survivors,
The hiss of the surgeon's knife, the gnawing teeth of his saw,   [ begin page 64 ]ppp.01663.070.jpg Wheeze, cluck, swash of falling blood, short wild scream, and long,  
 dull, tapering groan,
These so, these irretrievable.

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You laggards there on guard! look to your arms! In at the conquer'd doors they crowd! I am possess'd! Embody all presences outlaw'd or suffering, See myself in prison shaped like another man, And feel the dull unintermitted pain. For me the keepers of convicts shoulder their carbines and keep  
 watch,
It is I let out in the morning and barr'd at night.
Not a mutineer walks handcuff'd to jail but I am handcuff'd to  
 him and walk by his side,
(I am less the jolly one there, and more the silent one with sweat  
 on my twitching lips.)
Not a youngster is taken for larceny but I go up too, and am tried  
 and sentenced.
Not a cholera patient lies at the last gasp but I also lie at the last  
 gasp,
My face is ash-color'd, my sinews gnarl, away from me people  
 retreat.
Askers embody themselves in me and I am embodied in them, I project my hat, sit shame-faced, and beg.

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Enough! enough! enough! Somehow I have been stunn'd. Stand back! Give me a little time beyond my cuff'd head, slumbers, dreams,  
 gaping,
I discover myself on the verge of a usual mistake.
That I could forget the mockers and insults! That I could forget the trickling tears and the blows of the bludg- 
 eons and hammers!
That I could look with a separate look on my own crucifixion and  
 bloody crowning.
  [ begin page 65 ]ppp.01663.071.jpg I remember now, I resume the overstaid fraction, The grave of rock multiplies what has been confided to it, or to  
 any graves,
Corpses rise, gashes heal, fastenings roll from me.
I troop forth replenish'd with supreme power, one of an average  
 unending procession,
Inland and sea-coast we go, and pass all boundary lines, Our swift ordinances on their way over the whole earth, The blossoms we wear in our hats the growth of thousands of  
 years.
Eleves, I salute you! come forward! Continue your annotations, continue your questionings.

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The friendly and flowing savage, who is he? Is he waiting for civilization, or past it and mastering it? Is he some Southwesterner rais'd out-doors? is he Kanadian? Is he from the Mississippi country? Iowa, Oregon, California? The mountains? prairie-life, bush-life? or sailor from the sea? Wherever he goes men and women accept and desire him, They desire he should like them, touch them, speak to them, stay  
 with them.
Behavior lawless as snow-flakes, words simple as grass, uncomb'd  
 head, laughter, and naivetè,
Slow-stepping feet, common features, common modes and ema- 
 nations,
They descend in new forms from the tips of his fingers, They are wafted with the odor of his body or breath, they fly out  
 of the glance of his eyes.

40

Flaunt of the sunshine I need not your bask—lie over! You light surfaces only, I force surfaces and depths also. Earth! you seem to look for something at my hands, Say, old top-knot, what do you want? Man or woman, I might tell how I like you, but cannot,   [ begin page 66 ]ppp.01663.072.jpg And might tell what it is in me and what it is in you, but cannot, And might tell that pining I have, that pulse of my nights and  
 days.
Behold, I do not give lectures or a little charity, When I give I give myself. You there, impotent, loose in the knees, Open your scarf'd chops till I blow grit within you, Spread your palms and lift the flaps of your pockets, I am not to be denied, I compel, I have stores plenty and to spare, And any thing I have I bestow. I do not ask who you are, that is not important to me, You can do nothing and be nothing but what I will infold you. To cotton-field drudge or cleaner of privies I lean, On his right cheek I put the family kiss, And in my soul I swear I never will deny him. On women fit for conception I start bigger and nimbler babes, (This day I am jetting the stuff of far more arrogant republics.) To any one dying, thither I speed and twist the knob of the door, Turn the bed-clothes toward the foot of the bed, Let the physician and the priest go home. I seize the descending man and raise him with resistless will, O despairer, here is my neck, By God, you shall not go down! hang your whole weight upon me. I dilate you with tremendous breath, I buoy you up, Every room of the house do I fill with an arm'd force, Lovers of me, bafflers of graves. Sleep—I and they keep guard all night, Not doubt, not decease shall dare to lay finger upon you, I have embraced you, and henceforth possess you to myself, And when you rise in the morning you will find what I tell you is so.

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I am he bringing help for the sick as they pant on their backs, And for strong upright men I bring yet more needed help.   [ begin page 67 ]ppp.01663.073.jpg I heard what was said of the universe, Heard it and heard it of several thousand years; It is middling well as far as it goes—but is that all? Magnifying and applying come I, Outbidding at the start the old cautious hucksters, Taking myself the exact dimensions of Jehovah, Lithographing Kronos, Zeus his son, and Hercules his grandson, Buying drafts of Osiris, Isis, Belus, Brahma, Buddha, In my portfolio placing Manito loose, Allah on a leaf, the crucifix  
 engraved,
With Odin and the hideous-faced Mexitli and every idol and image, Taking them all for what they are worth and not a cent more, Admitting they were alive and did the work of their days, (They bore mites as for unfledg'd birds who have now to rise and  
 fly and sing for themselves,)
Accepting the rough deific sketches to fill out better in myself,  
 bestowing them freely on each man and woman I see,
Discovering as much or more in a framer framing a house, Putting higher claims for him there with his roll'd-up sleeves driving  
 the mallet and chisel,
Not objecting to special revelations, considering a curl of smoke  
 or a hair on the back of my hand just as curious as any  
 revelation,
Lads ahold of fire-engines and hook-and-ladder ropes no less to  
 me than the gods of the antique wars,
Minding their voices peal through the crash of destruction, Their brawny limbs passing safe over charr'd laths, their white  
 foreheads whole and unhurt out of the flames;
By the mechanic's wife with her babe at her nipple interceding for  
 every person born,
Three scythes at harvest whizzing in a row from three lusty angels  
 with shirts bagg'd out at their waists,
The snag-tooth'd hostler with red hair redeeming sins past and to  
 come,
Selling all he possesses, traveling on foot to fee lawyers for his  
 brother and sit by him while he is tried for forgery;
What was strewn in the amplest strewing the square rod about  
 me, and not filling the square rod then,
The bull and the bug never worshipp'd half enough, Dung and dirt more admirable than was dream'd, The supernatural of no account, myself waiting my time to be one  
 of the supremes,
The day getting ready for me when I shall do as much good as  
 the best, and be as prodigious;
  [ begin page 68 ]ppp.01663.074.jpg By my life-lumps! becoming already a creator, Putting myself here and now to the ambush'd womb of the shadows.

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A call in the midst of the crowd, My own voice, orotund sweeping and final. Come my children, Come my boys and girls, my women, household and intimates, Now the performer launches his nerve, he has pass'd his prelude  
 on the reeds within.
Easily written loose-finger'd chords—I feel the thrum of your  
 climax and close.
My head slues round on my neck, Music rolls, but not from the organ, Folks are around me, but they are no household of mine. Ever the hard unsunk ground, Ever the eaters and drinkers, ever the upward and downward sun,  
 ever the air and the ceaseless tides,
Ever myself and my neighbors, refreshing, wicked, real, Ever the old inexplicable query, ever that thorn'd thumb, that  
 breath of itches and thirsts,
Ever the vexer's hoot! hoot! till we find where the sly one hides  
 and bring him forth,
Ever love, ever the sobbing liquid of life, Ever the bandage under the chin, ever the trestles of death.
Here and there with dimes on the eyes walking, To feed the greed of the belly the brains liberally spooning, Tickets buying, taking, selling, but in to the feast never once going. Many sweating, ploughing, thrashing, and then the chaff for pay- 
 ment receiving,
A few idly owning, and they the wheat continually claiming.
This is the city and I am one of the citizens, Whatever interests the rest interests me, politics, wars, markets,  
 newspapers, schools,
The mayor and councils, banks, tariffs, steamships, factories, stocks,  
 stores, real estate and personal estate.
The little plentiful manikins skipping around in collars and tail'd  
 coats,
  [ begin page 69 ]ppp.01663.075.jpg I am aware who they are, (they are positively not worms or fleas,) I acknowledge the duplicates of myself, the weakest and shallowest  
 is deathless with me,
What I do and say the same waits for them, Every thought that flounders in me the same flounders in them.
I know perfectly well my own egotism, Know my omnivorous lines and must not write any less, And would fetch you whoever you are flush with myself. Not words of routine this song of mine, But abruptly to question, to leap beyond yet nearer bring; This printed and bound book—but the printer and the printing- 
 office boy?
The well-taken photographs—but your wife or friend close and  
 solid in your arms?
The black ship mail'd with iron, her mighty guns in her turrets—  
 but the pluck of the captain and engineers?
In the houses the dishes and fare and furniture—but the host and  
 hostess, and the look out of their eyes?
The sky up there—yet here or next door, or across the way? The saints and sages in history—but you yourself? Sermons, creeds, theology—but the fathomless human brain, And what is reason? and what is love? and what is life?

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I do not despise you priests, all time, the world over, My faith is the greatest of faiths and the least of faiths, Enclosing worship ancient and modern and all between ancient  
 and modern,
Believing I shall come again upon the earth after five thousand  
 years,
Waiting responses from oracles, honoring the gods, saluting the  
 sun,
Making a fetich of the first rock or stump, powowing with sticks in  
 the circle of obis,
Helping the llama or brahmin as he trims the lamps of the idols, Dancing yet through the streets in a phallic procession, rapt and  
 austere in the woods a gymnosophist,
Drinking mead from the skull-cup, to Shastas and Vedas admirant,  
 minding the Koran,
Walking the teokallis, spotted with gore from the stone and knife,  
 beating the serpent-skin drum,
Accepting the Gospels, accepting him that was crucified, knowing  
 assuredly that he is divine,
  [ begin page 70 ]ppp.01663.076.jpg To the mass kneeling or the puritan's prayer rising, or sitting  
 patiently in a pew,
Ranting and frothing in my insane crisis, or waiting dead-like till  
 my spirit arouses me,
Looking forth on pavement and land, or outside of pavement and  
 land,
Belonging to the winders of the circuit of circuits.
One of that centripetal and centrifugal gang I turn and talk like a  
 man leaving charges before a journey.
Down-hearted doubters dull and excluded, Frivolous, sullen, moping, angry, affected, dishearten'd, atheistical, I know every one of you, I know the sea of torment, doubt,  
 despair and unbelief.
How the flukes splash! How they contort rapid as lightning, with spasms and spouts of  
 blood!
Be at peace bloody flukes of doubters and sullen mopers, I take my place among you as much as among any, The past is the push of you, me, all, precisely the same, And what is yet untried and afterward is for you, me, all, precisely  
 the same.
I do not know what is untried and afterward, But I know it will in its turn prove sufficient, and cannot fail. Each who passes is consider'd, each who stops is consider'd, not  
 a single one can it fail.
It cannot fail the young man who died and was buried, Nor the young woman who died and was put by his side, Nor the little child that peep'd in at the door, and then drew back  
 and was never seen again,
Nor the old man who has lived without purpose, and feels it with  
 bitterness worse than gall,
Nor him in the poor house tubercled by rum and the bad dis- 
 order,
Nor the numberless slaughter'd and wreck'd, nor the brutish koboo  
 call'd the ordure of humanity,
Nor the sacs merely floating with open mouths for food to slip in, Nor any thing in the earth, or down in the oldest graves of the  
 earth,
  [ begin page 71 ]ppp.01663.077.jpg Nor any thing in the myriads of spheres, nor the myriads of  
 myriads that inhabit them,
Nor the present, nor the least wisp that is known.

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It is time to explain myself—let us stand up. What is known I strip away, I launch all men and women forward with me into the Unknown. The clock indicates the moment—but what does eternity indicate? We have thus far exhausted trillions of winters and summers, There are trillions ahead, and trillions ahead of them. Births have brought us richness and variety, And other births will bring us richness and variety. I do not call one greater and one smaller, That which fills its period and place is equal to any. Were mankind murderous or jealous upon you, my brother, my  
 sister?
I am sorry for you, they are not murderous or jealous upon me, All has been gentle with me, I keep no account with lamentation, (What have I to do with lamentation?)
I am an acme of things accomplish'd, and I an encloser of things  
 to be.
My feet strike an apex of the apices of the stairs, On every step bunches of ages, and larger bunches between the  
 steps,
All below duly travel'd, and still I mount and mount.
Rise after rise bow the phantoms behind me, Afar down I see the huge first Nothing, I know I was even there, I waited unseen and always, and slept through the lethargic mist, And took my time, and took no hurt from the fetid carbon. Long I was hugg'd close—long and long. Immense have been the preparations for me, Faithful and friendly the arms that have help'd me.   [ begin page 72 ]ppp.01663.078.jpg Cycles ferried my cradle, rowing and rowing like cheerful boatmen, For room to me stars kept aside in their own rings, They sent influences to look after what was to hold me. Before I was born out of my mother generations guided me, My embryo has never been torpid, nothing could overlay it. For it the nebula cohered to an orb, The long slow strata piled to rest it on, Vast vegetables gave it sustenance, Monstrous sauroids transported it in their mouths and deposited  
 it with care.
All forces have been steadily employ'd to complete and delight me, Now on this spot I stand with my robust soul.

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O span of youth! ever-push'd elasticity! O manhood, balanced, florid and full. My lovers suffocate me, Crowding my lips, thick in the pores of my skin, Jostling me through streets and public halls, coming naked to me  
 at night,
Crying by day Ahoy! from the rocks of the river, swinging and  
 chirping over my head,
Calling my name from flower-beds, vines, tangled underbrush, Lighting on every moment of my life, Bussing my body with soft balsamic busses, Noiselessly passing handfuls out of their hearts and giving them  
 to be mine.
Old age superbly rising! O welcome, ineffable grace of dying  
 days!
Every condition promulges not only itself, it promulges what grows  
 after and out of itself,
And the dark hush promulges as much as any.
I open my scuttle at night and see the far-sprinkled systems, And all I see multiplied as high as I can cipher edge but the rim  
 of the farther systems.
Wider and wider they spread, expanding, always expanding, Outward and outward and forever outward.   [ begin page 73 ]ppp.01663.079.jpg My sun has his sun and round him obediently wheels, He joins with his partners a group of superior circuit, And greater sets follow, making specks of the greatest inside them. There is no stoppage and never can be stoppage, If I, you, and the worlds, and all beneath or upon their surfaces,  
 were this moment reduced back to a pallid float, it would  
 not avail in the long run,
We should surely bring up again where we now stand, And surely go as much farther, and then farther and farther.
A few quadrillions of eras, a few octillions of cubic leagues, do not  
 hazard the span or make it impatient,
They are but parts, any thing is but a part.
See ever so far, there is limitless space outside of that, Count ever so much, there is limitless time around that. My rendezvous is appointed, it is certain, The Lord will be there and wait till I come on perfect terms, The great Camerado, the lover true for whom I pine will be there.

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I know I have the best of time and space, and was never measured  
 and never will be measured.
I tramp a perpetual journey, (come listen all!) My signs are a rain-proof coat, good shoes, and a staff cut from  
 the woods,
No friend of mine takes his ease in my chair, I have no chair, no church, no philosophy, I lead no man to a dinner-table, library, exchange, But each man and each woman of you I lead upon a knoll, My left hand hooking you round the waist, My right hand pointing to landscapes of continents and the public  
 road.
Not I, not any one else can travel that road for you, You must travel it for yourself. It is not far, it is within reach, Perhaps you have been on it since you were born and did not  
 know,
Perhaps it is everywhere on water and on land.
  [ begin page 74 ]ppp.01663.080.jpg Shoulder your duds dear son, and I will mine, and let us hasten  
 forth,
Wonderful cities and free nations we shall fetch as we go.
If you tire, give me both burdens, and rest the chuff of your hand  
 on my hip,
And in due time you shall repay the same service to me, For after we start we never lie by again.
This day before dawn I ascended a hill and look'd at the crowded  
 heaven,
And I said to my spirit When we become the enfolders of those  
  orbs, and the pleasure and knowledge of every thing in  
  them, shall we be fill'd and satisfied then?
And my spirit said No, we but level that lift to pass and continue  
  beyond.
You are also asking me questions and I hear you, I answer that I cannot answer, you must find out for yourself. Sit a while dear son, Here are biscuits to eat and here is milk to drink, But as soon as you sleep and renew yourself in sweet clothes, I  
 kiss you with a good-by kiss and open the gate for your  
 egress hence.
Long enough have you dream'd contemptible dreams, Now I wash the gum from your eyes, You must habit yourself to the dazzle of the light and of every  
 moment of your life.
Long have you timidly waded holding a plank by the shore, Now I will you to be a bold swimmer, To jump off in the midst of the sea, rise again, nod to me, shout,  
 and laughingly dash with your hair.

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I am the teacher of athletes, He that by me spreads a wider breast than my own proves the  
 width of my own,
He most honors my style who learns under it to destroy the  
 teacher.
The boy I love, the same becomes a man not through derived  
 power, but in his own right,
  [ begin page 75 ]ppp.01663.081.jpg Wicked rather than virtuous out of conformity or fear, Fond of his sweetheart, relishing well his steak, Unrequited love or a slight cutting him worse than sharp steel  
 cuts,
First-rate to ride, to fight, to hit the bull's eye, to sail a skiff, to  
 sing a song or play on the banjo,
Preferring scars and the beard and faces pitted with small-pox  
 over all latherers,
And those well-tann'd to those that keep out of the sun.
I teach straying from me, yet who can stray from me? I follow you whoever you are from the present hour, My words itch at your ears till you understand them. I do not say these things for a dollar or to fill up the time while I  
 wait for a boat,
(It is you talking just as much as myself, I act as the tongue of  
 you,
Tied in your mouth, in mine it begins to be loosen'd.)
I swear I will never again mention love or death inside a house, And I swear I will never translate myself at all, only to him or her  
 who privately stays with me in the open air.
If you would understand me go to the heights or water-shore, The nearest gnat is an explanation, and a drop or motion of waves  
 a key,
The maul, the oar, the hand-saw, second my words.
No shutter'd room or school can commune with me, But roughs and little children better than they. The young mechanic is closest to me, he knows me well, The woodman that takes his axe and jug with him shall take me  
 with him all day,
The farm-boy ploughing in the field feels good at the sound of my  
 voice,
In vessels that sail my words sail, I go with fishermen and seamen  
 and love them.
The soldier camp'd or upon the march is mine, On the night ere the pending battle many seek me, and I do not  
 fail them,
On that solemn night (it may be their last) those that know me  
 seek me.
  [ begin page 76 ]ppp.01663.082.jpg My face rubs to the hunter's face when he lies down alone in his  
 blanket,
The driver thinking of me does not mind the jolt of his wagon, The young mother and old mother comprehend me, The girl and the wife rest the needle a moment and forget where  
 they are,
They and all would resume what I have told them.

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I have said that the soul is not more than the body, And I have said that the body is not more than the soul, And nothing, not God, is greater to one than one's self is, And whoever walks a furlong without sympathy walks to his own  
 funeral drest in his shroud,
And I or you pocketless of a dime may purchase the pick of the  
 earth,
And to glance with an eye or show a bean in its pod confounds  
 the learning of all times,
And there is no trade or employment but the young man following  
 it may become a hero,
And there is no object so soft but it makes a hub for the wheel'd  
 universe,
And I say to any man or woman, Let your soul stand cool and  
 composed before a million universes.
And I say to mankind, Be not curious about God, For I who am curious about each am not curious about God, (No array of terms can say how much I am at peace about God  
 and about death.)
I hear and behold God in every object, yet understand God not  
 in the least,
Nor do I understand who there can be more wonderful than  
 myself.
Why should I wish to see God better than this day? I see something of God each hour of the twenty-four, and each  
 moment then,
In the faces of men and women I see God, and in my own face in  
 the glass,
I find letters from God dropt in the street, and every one is sign'd  
 by God's name,
And I leave them where they are, for I know that wheresoe'er I go, Others will punctually come for ever and ever.
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And as to you Death, and you bitter hug of mortality, it is idle to  
 try to alarm me.
To his work without flinching the accoucheur comes, I see the elder-hand pressing receiving supporting, I recline by the sills of the exquisite flexible doors, And mark the outlet, and mark the relief and escape. And as to you Corpse I think you are good manure, but that does  
 not offend me,
I smell the white roses sweet-scented and growing, I reach to the leafy lips, I reach to the polish'd breasts of melons.
And as to you Life I reckon you are the leavings of many deaths, (No doubt I have died myself ten thousand times before.) I hear you whispering there O stars of heaven, O suns—O grass of graves—O perpetual transfers and pro- 
 motions,
If you do not say any thing how can I say any thing?
Of the turbid pool that lies in the autumn forest, Of the moon that descends the steeps of the soughing twilight, Toss, sparkles of day and dusk—toss on the black stems that  
 decay in the muck,
Toss to the moaning gibberish of the dry limbs.
I ascend from the moon, I ascend from the night, I perceive that the ghastly glimmer is noonday sunbeams reflected, And debouch to the steady and central from the offspring great or  
 small.

50

There is that in me—I do not know what it is—but I know it is  
 in me.
Wrench'd and sweaty—calm and cool then my body becomes, I sleep—I sleep long. I do not know it—it is without name—it is a word unsaid, It is not in any dictionary, utterance, symbol. Something it swings on more than the earth I swing on, To it the creation is the friend whose embracing awakes me.   [ begin page 78 ]ppp.01663.084.jpg Perhaps I might tell more. Outlines! I plead for my brothers  
 and sisters.
Do you see O my brothers and sisters? It is not chaos or death—it is form, union, plan—it is eternal  
 life—it is Happiness.

51

The past and present wilt—I have fill'd them, emptied them. And proceed to fill my next fold of the future. Listener up there! what have you to confide to me? Look in my face while I snuff the sidle of evening, (Talk honestly, no one else hears you, and I stay only a minute  
 longer.)
Do I contradict myself? Very well then I contradict myself, (I am large, I contain multitudes.) I concentrate toward them that are nigh, I wait on the door-slab. Who has done his day's work? who will soonest be through with  
 his supper?
Who wishes to walk with me?
Will you speak before I am gone? will you prove already too late?

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The spotted hawk swoops by and accuses me, he complains of my  
 gab and my loitering.
I too am not a bit tamed, I too am untranslatable, I sound my barbaric yawp over the roofs of the world. The last scud of day holds back for me, It flings my likeness after the rest and true as any on the shadow'd  
 wilds,
It coaxes me to the vapor and the dusk.
I depart as air, I shake my white locks at the runaway sun, I effuse my flesh in eddies, and drift it in lacy jags. I bequeath myself to the dirt to grow from the grass I love, If you want me again look for me under your boot-soles.   [ begin page 79 ]ppp.01663.085.jpg You will hardly know who I am or what I mean, But I shall be good health to you nevertheless, And filter and fibre your blood. Failing to fetch me at first keep encouraged, Missing me one place search another, I stop somewhere waiting for you.
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