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Leaves of Grass (1860)
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3.
1 WHOEVER you are holding me now in hand, |
Without one thing all will be useless, |
I give you fair warning, before you attempt me
further,
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I am not what you supposed, but far different. |
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2 Who is he that would become my follower? |
Who would sign himself a candidate for my affec-
tions? Are you he?
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3 The way is suspicious—the result slow, uncertain,
may-be destructive;
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You would have to give up all else—I alone would
expect to be your God, sole and exclusive,
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Your novitiate would even then be long and ex-
hausting,
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The whole past theory of your life, and all conformity
to the lives around you, would have to be aban-
doned;
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Therefore release me now, before troubling yourself
any further—Let go your hand from my
shoulders,
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Put me down, and depart on your way. |
4 Or else, only by stealth, in some wood, for trial, |
Or back of a rock, in the open air, |
(For in any roofed room of a house I emerge not—
nor in company,
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And in libraries I lie as one dumb, a gawk, or unborn,
or dead,)
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But just possibly with you on a high hill—first
watching lest any person, for miles around,
approach unawares,
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Or possibly with you sailing at sea, or on the beach of
the sea, or some quiet island,
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Here to put your lips upon mine I permit you, |
With the comrade's long-dwelling kiss, or the new
husband's kiss,
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For I am the new husband, and I am the comrade. |
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5 Or, if you will, thrusting me beneath your clothing, |
Where I may feel the throbs of your heart, or rest
upon your hip,
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Carry me when you go forth over land or sea; |
For thus, merely touching you, is enough—is best, |
And thus, touching you, would I silently sleep and be
carried eternally.
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6 But these leaves conning, you con at peril, |
For these leaves, and me, you will not understand, |
They will elude you at first, and still more after-
ward—I will certainly elude you,
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Even while you should think you had unquestionably
caught me, behold!
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Already you see I have escaped from you. |
7 For it is not for what I have put into it that I have
written this book,
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Nor is it by reading it you will acquire it, |
Nor do those know me best who admire me, and
vauntingly praise me,
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Nor will the candidates for my love, (unless at most a
very few,) prove victorious,
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Nor will my poems do good only—they will do just
as much evil, perhaps more,
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For all is useless without that which you may guess
at many times and not hit—that which I
hinted at,
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Therefore release me, and depart on your way. |
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