Leaves of Grass, by Walt Whitman

Leaves of Grass (1871-72)

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AS I EBB'D WITH THE OCEAN OF LIFE.

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¹ ELEMENTAL drifts!

HOW I wish I could impress others as you have just
been impressing me!

² As I ebb'd with an an ebb of the ocean of life,

As I wended the shores I know,

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As I walk'd where the ripples continually wash you,
Paumanok,

Where they rustle up, hoarse and sibilant,

Where the fierce old mother endlessly cries for her
castaways,

I, musing, late in the autumn day, gazing off south-
ward,

Alone, held by this eternal self of me, out of the pride
of which I utter my poems,

Was seiz'd by the spirit that trails in the lines under-
foot,

In the rim, the sediment that stands for all the water
and all the land of the globe.

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⁴ As I wend to the shores I know not,

As I list to the dirge, the voices of men and women
wreck'd,

As I inhale the impalpable breezes that set in upon
me,

As the ocean so mysterious rolls toward me closer and
closer,

I, too, but signify, at the utmost, a little wash'd-up
drift,

A few sands and dead leaves to gather,

Gather, and merge myself as part of the sands and
drift.

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⁵ O baffled, balk'd, bent to the very earth,

Oppress'd with myself that I have dared to open my
mouth,

Aware now, that, amid all that blab whose echoes recoil
upon me, I have not once had the least idea
who or what I am,

But that before all my arrogant poems the real ME
stands yet untouch'd, untold, altogether un-
reach'd,

Withdrawn far, mocking me with mock-congratulatory
signs and bows,

With peals of distant ironical laughter at every word I
have written,

Pointing in silence to these songs, and then to the sand
beneath.

⁶ Now I perceive I have not understood any thing—not
a single object—and that no man ever can.

⁷ I perceive Nature, here in sight of the sea, is taking
advantage of me, to dart upon me, and sting me,

Because I have dared to open my mouth to sing at all.

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⁸ You oceans both! I close with you;

We murmur alike reproachfully, rolling sands and
drift, knowing not why,

These little shreds indeed, standing for you and me
and all.

⁹ You friable shore, with trails of debris!

You fish-shaped island! I take what is underfoot;

What is yours is mine, my father.

¹⁰ I too Paumanok,

I too have bubbled up, floated the measureless float,
and been wash'd on your shores;

I too am but a trail of drift and debris;

I too leave little wrecks upon you, you fish-shaped
island.

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¹¹ I throw myself upon your breast, my father,

I cling to you so that you cannot unloose me,

I hold you so firm, till you answer me something.

¹² Kiss me, my father,

Touch me with your lips, as I touch those I love,

Breathe to me, while I hold you close, the secret of the
murmuring I envy.

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¹³ Ebb, ocean of life, (the flow will return,)

Cease not your moaning, you fierce old mother,

Endlessly cry for your castaways—but fear not, deny
not me,

Rustle not up so hoarse and angry against my feet, as I
touch you, or gather from you.

¹⁴ I mean tenderly by you and all,

I gather for myself, and for this phantom, looking down
where we lead, and following me and mine.

¹⁵ Me and mine!

We, loose windrows, little corpses,

Froth, snowy white, and bubbles,

(See! from my dead lips the ooze exuding at last!

See—the prismatic colors glistening and rolling!)

Tufts of straw, sands, fragments,

Buoy'd hither from many moods, one contradicting
another,

From the storm, the long calm, the darkness, the swell;

Musing, pondering, a breath, a briny tear, a dab of
liquid or soil;

Up just as much out of fathomless workings fermented
and thrown;

A limp blossom or two, torn, just as much over waves
floating, drifted at random;

Just as much for us that sobbing dirge of Nature;

Just as much, whence we come, that blare of the cloud-
trumpets;

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We, capricious, brought hither we know not whence,
spread out before you,

You, up there, walking or sitting,

Whoever you are—we too lie in drifts at your feet.

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