8 O.'clock. I have just seen Han,1 upstairs: summond by
her bell, which I was expecting to hear. She was much better than I expected. I was
very apprehensive last night. She talked strangely, and enquired in whispers to me,
whether truly I wanted her to get well. I was with her, at her bedside repeatedly,
and then retired, so as to leave her quiet, alone, as she desired: administered a
nervine potion, which alone has effect upon nervousness. She had complained much of
her poor head, and heart throbbing. Entreated me not to let her be taken to the
hospital. This institution however is a place that many have preferred to be taken to, in
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perfect trained nurses are in attendance, and all uniformed cleanly; free from noise
or care: Senator Edmunds2 has endowed a room there: I believe that his daughter was
there. Our most experienced practicioners in surgery and medicine are daily
examiners and prescribers. It is a beautiful situation, not very remote from our
house, on a fine elevation. But I shall keep Han, in our own house and home. I break
down allmost to hysteria at times, from exhaustion but my appetite remains steadfast,
without a drop of artificial stimulant, alcohol or other. I perform all the
housework, even to washing. Han does not; is averse to having our clothes put to
laundry; their
condition is so bad: beside to keep my house free from embarressment
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debt; for pay day comes at last, and my habitation is a guarantee to creditors. I
have nursed Han though many very bad, very hard physical disorders, typhoid,
Erysipilas ; spinal neuralgia, Hysteria, which is perhaps the most afflicting, and
most incurable, possessing the mind with terrible conceits, woebegone fancies; distrust of the
best friend. haunted; afflicting to madness.
I was much encouraged yesterday, and got away from the house for a couple of hours,
to see about the sale of several of my paintings by shares or lottery: The frames cost about 60
dollars, for which I am partly in debt: and every one seems hard pressed for money:
There is so much extravagance in dress and living: I do not marvel: I may succeed
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however—I can but try: I shall have to keep to the house to day: Han desires
it: I have bought comforters and bedcloth sheets etc, and may be compelled to buy
another stove: Doctor will
be satisfied with a painting; he visits daily, sometimes twice a generous, skilled
man, has promised to continue faithfully
I think the public appreciates my professional labours and endurance; my devotion—yet so many have imperative needs of their. George3 should help us, all he can: Han's friends or relatives are known: and my embarressments. I shall assist in bringing her down stairs this morning: two warm coal fires make the rooms comfortable—She mentions you and George: oftimes fails—can not see any person or talk.
C. L. HeydeIf it was spring time!
Correspondent:
Charles Louis Heyde (ca.
1820–1892), a French-born landscape painter, married Hannah Louisa Whitman
(1823–1908), Walt Whitman's sister, and they lived in Burlington, Vermont.
Charles Heyde was infamous among the Whitmans for his offensive letters and poor
treatment of Hannah. For more information about Heyde, see Steven Schroeder,
"Heyde, Charles Louis (1822–1892)," Walt
Whitman: An Encyclopedia, ed. J.R. LeMaster and Donald D. Kummings (New
York: Garland Publishing, 1998).