Thank you for papers sent, & for all loving thought. I hope you are "holding your own."
I must have gained a little here, for I sleep more, and have a better appetite. I am going to be weighed, I weighed 95 the day before I left Washington. loc.02980.002.jpg I write now especially to tell you that I intend to leave here next Monday, Sept. 16, unless a storm should prevent. We have to go to Eastport 12 miles by wagon, & then take steamer to Boston. If it is stormy, Mrs. Porter1 says we must take the next boat, that would be Sept. 18. Wednesday. But in any case after you get this letter, my address loc.02980.003.jpg will be care of my nephew in Boston which I will give in a separate slip. I shall make a few short stops with nieces & others till I return home, & as my nephew is a fixture, he will forward any thing to me wherever I am. I shall not go home till into October I think. We have had such a wet & rainy summer there that I know I better wait a while. I dread, dear Walt, I can't tell any loc.02980.004.jpg one how much I dread the going back home. I say home, but the sense of loneliness that overtakes me when I think of going is heart-sickening. And the uncertainty of all adds to it. If I were sure that I could make any arrangement to keep a home, I should feel better, but all is so cloudy & misty. But I try to keep up a good heart, & not to worry my friends with my troubles.
I have one hope that I am clinging to, and that is that my sister Mrs. Channing2 may loc.02980.005.jpg come on. She has not been East since they went to Cal. five years next month, & she wants to come if their finances will allow, & it will be the greatest comfort & help to me, as she can advise me better than any one, what to do, & help me about disposing of William's3 papers &c. He left all to me absolutely, but I should be so glad of help in many matters, & wish I had any one near at hand who could advise with me.
Do you think there is loc.02980.006.jpg any good picture of William? one that you really like? Appleton has sent for me for the Encyclopedia,4 & I have not the one that I like best here with me, & the best of the late ones is not to my mind. How do you like the one in "The Great Cryptogram?"5
Thanks for the papers. Critic came yesterday with the Hawthorne letters. I was glad to see them.
You will see what a remote place this is, & how loc.02980.007.jpg protected the shore when I tell you that the heavy sea of last Sunday & Monday did not reach us. It is the only seashore place that I ever touched where there is never any surf.
Good by.
I send my address on the enclosed slip.
With love always— Nelly O'Connor.(over)
loc.02980.008.jpgI have a picture of William taken long ago that I like very much but would it be as satisfactory to the friends generally as the later ones, taken four years ago?
If you are able to write, I should like your thought in this matter.
Yours— Nelly O'Connor. the address is care Charles E Legg 146 Devonshire St: Boston Mass:Correspondent:
Ellen M. "Nelly" O'Connor (1830–1913) was the
wife of William D. O'Connor (1832–1889), one of Whitman's staunchest
defenders. Before marrying William, Ellen Tarr was active in the antislavery and
women's rights movements as a contributor to the Liberator and to a women's rights newspaper Una. Whitman dined with the O'Connors frequently during his Washington
years. Though Whitman and William O'Connor would temporarily break off their
friendship in late 1872 over Reconstruction policies with regard to emancipated
African Americans, Ellen would remain friendly with Whitman. The correspondence
between Whitman and Ellen is almost as voluminous as the poet's correspondence
with William. Three years after William O'Connor's death, Ellen married the
Providence businessman Albert Calder. For more on Whitman's relationship with the O'Connors, see Dashae
E. Lott, "O'Connor, William Douglas [1832–1889]" and Lott's "O'Connor (Calder),
Ellen ('Nelly') M. Tarr (1830–1913)," Walt
Whitman: An Encyclopedia, ed. J.R. LeMaster and Donald D. Kummings (New
York: Garland Publishing, 1998).