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From today's Press as a queer result of my interception of the reporter last evening: SUN PICTURE OF

sketch or poem, all of which are hurried off to the publishers of his forthcoming book, called "Good-by, my

history—passes through camps, enters the hospitals—using gifts of penetration (Horace, they told me my

And I want you to take this with you—assert it anywhere for me—make it felt as my message, declaration

And as I said my good-bye, he picked up Truth—waved his hand as I went out the door—and turned towards

.: "GoodBye My Fancy 2d Annex to LofG". Did he propose to put his name on title-page? No.

Longaker said they had nothing at all to do with my depression, but I stopped them today.

My sleep didn't amount to a small coin.

My belly kept me awake—yes, awake and awake—which is unusual, for in my own way, as a usual thing, I

And then, "But I have just had my dinner—and ate heartily—and took a couple of swallows of the wine.

On my way to Phila. Shall be able despite doubts to go to N.Y. tomorrow.

But that shows a misconception of my mission on this earth, which is not to be catspaw under whatever

issues of time, or to claim that which is not my own, or to play fool—as would be palpably the case

for me to print under my own name an article which any astute man would at once see was his by fingermarks

I had left on my first trip the old scrap-book containing Ingersoll's "Burns."

Friday, December 5, 1890Left Philadelphia in 5 P.M. train—no baggage but my umbrella, a comb, a toothbrush

No one up there but girl who directed me to my room. Did not see Johnston at once.

But by and by, as I sat in the room reading, he appeared in undress at the door between my room and another—coming

With my bundle and Bush (Bush having brought bundle to office) we hastened the several doors to Ingersoll's

My ire was stirred. Give him my name! He will see nobody! Give him my name—Traubel! He is busy.

Take my name to him—yes—you must—he will see me.

And to complete the fall, Baker at this instant entered from the hall, came eagerly forward, grasped my

"Give my love to the old man. But never mind—I shall see you again!"

This prevented my getting round to see either Ingersoll, Adler or Baker.

My heart would have taken me to Ingersoll's in evening.

I am glad to hear that W. seems better—that is at least so much against my gloomy foreboding.All quiet

Yet in my heart I do feel some fear that his forebodings are not unreasonable.

My determination invincible.

He grasped my hand and held it, saying, "I am glad to have it again: it carries me into my right humor

My New Ideal piece out. Had no copy with me. Have sent copies to Ingersoll and Baker.

Thought my souvenir would be "thoroughly unique: I almost enviges you!"

"No—only by my good sense." I reminded him that in several cases he had made minor changes.

Gave me a cake for my mother. Had done it up in envelope and laid out on the bed for me.

I shall have something to say about that in 'Good-Bye My Fancy.'" I asked, "Is the book ready?"

"That was my own opinion: I have seen it."

My old opinion of it lasts—lasts." Johnston a "good man" to W.

Upstairs in his room W. reading—looking not over well—yet cheerful in mien and speech—though in reply to my

question saying, "I still stay at my low ebb—these are dark days."

It was bright sunshine in my room here as long as she stayed."

splendid praise and approval.To know that a man like yourself understands me is enough and with all my

In my hands it would not have been so certain of delivery."

I never thought of Buck's $10 again till three or four days later, when I opened my long memorandum book

So I carried Buck's $10 in my memo book till Nov. 28, when your call came and, putting $5 more with it

can explain to Walt the whole thing, and relieve me from what seems a mean thing.I am not ashamed of my

I have done my duty and been liberal as I could possibly afford to be.

All-seeing I am as clear as crystal and am not worried even if I am annoyed and wish I had stated in my

Laughed at my "lynx-eyes," etc.

For my part I didn't think either Parnell or Gladstone in themselves important—that they stood for anything

"My copy of the Critic did not come this week. Was there anything in it I should see?"

I then promised to bring him my copy.

With W. nearly an hour—though on my first coming he spoke of "the bad day" he had had, "a weary congregation

Will send you $5 the first of every month.Inclosed find $10, which please hand to Walt with my love,

I am very very busy and cannot say more tonight.Sincerely yoursJ H Johnston Will you destroy my letter

W. said, "I sent them copies of my leather-covered book: did they get them?"

That has often been on my mind."

s room, he looked at it and confirmed my opinion, "I am inclined to repeat what you say—that it is better

He has "no word from the North American Review yet—yet I see that my piece on National Literature is

My warm response to this causing his pathetic reference to Jeff: "The good boy!

Do not usually mention my letters because W. is curious to see them and there's always something in them

"Tempting as it is, I have forborne—have stuck by my room."

He kept my cold hand—said: "Its cold is no offense—refreshing, rather."

Yet on the other hand I am always determined—have been, whether when I wrote or spoke, to present my

own case, be myself, let my own position be understood.

No—Williams will not print—at least with my consent: I should, as I see it now, be positively opposed

I explained my idea—"Their democracy is born of something other than democracy—ours from democracy itself

W. in his own room—had untied manuscript "Good-Bye My Fancy"—had it spread out in his lap, the table,

My only apprehension was, that the thing was sent and miscarried someway in the mails.

My brother leaves me this afternoon—have just been having a fine game of backgammon with him—all well

have spent a horrible day—full of discomfort—sticky—sluggish—baddish more ways than I can tell: one of my

Wished my own article in about ten days, if possible.

the darkey says—all the day up to this afternoon, when Mary made and brought me a cup of hot tea—at my

"If it is not, it is my fault—there is plenty of wood here and I have all the time there is.

He had received my Engineering Record.

I wrote on the blank side and mailed the letter out to my niece, Jessie—at St. Louis."

had been much better today—and after I had entered his room and he had offered his big hand—clasped my

I raised my eyes—was it his sister? Something to outwit this scoundrel in Burlington?

This simply crossed my mind—I made no mention of it.

I was on my way to Thomas concert tonight. Campanini to sing.

It is loyal, generous, correct, and true, and doesn't labor to prove that "My Captain" is the best of

I do my work by degrees." Remarked too how little capacitated he was for work.

While L. said: "Curiously, W. never answered one of my questions."

I am often asked when I take strangers there, why it is I cast my voice to such a pitch.

Hope to send my New England Magazine piece off tomorrow or next day—with pictures.

And further, "And this follows your idea in the paper"—referring to one of my notes in the Conservator

I laughed in turn: "Perhaps the other fellow would have it to say 'I don't intend to be asked my reasons

My impression is that he will.

I reminded him that in my Whitman piece, he had not filled in date blank for the founding of the Long

I was a mere boy, then—it was in fact my boyish exuberance put into concrete manifestation.

You can tell so much better than I what will be his needs, or his momentary desire.With my best wishes

My mind is greatly relieved by this letter—of course there remains the paralysis, W.'

I spoke of its wonder and W. repeated my word—admitting it had "wonder: that first wonder—influence—which

"Enviged" me, he said smilingly, my prospective roamings this day.

"I am sorry for my imprisonment—but glad I have a good prison," etc., with a laugh.

He tells an anecdote of my brother which is thought characteristic."

But for my own part I want it clearly understood that I do not in the least share such a notion: not

s on my way home. Found him very comfortable—looking well—reporting himself so-so.

And I was willing for that to let all my profit go—and more if it was necessary."

gesturing with great energy and saying to me—"I wish I really could repeat the lines—they are noble—have my

I had a fall last evening and dislocated my left shoulder (it was the right arm last time, three months

Said he had heard Doctor Garrison was better: "I was glad, too, to hear that—he has always been my friend

I interposing—"No: you remember I testify in my article that you are sharply determined in all such minute

And that "Lincoln granted it, only said—'But my plan is, to meet each day as it appears—to have no rules

, except the rule to apply my best force to every new circumstance.'"

Then to Harned's for consultation about the meter—to my house for some further Whitman talk—finally to

have your notes of 23rd & 24th and am rejoiced at the very favorable reports you give me of W.I am in my

Had introduced us promptly on my entrance. Man over about hat. W. described comically the visit.

What would I not give to be able to show him how deep he has entered into my respect—my nature: taken

Called out "Horace" with great cordiality—took and held my hand—said, "I had wondered what had become

And I explained my absence—he assenting, "I know—it was all right—I am not disposed to question it.

Said he had no word from Talcott Williams yet anent Reisser colloquy—"my type-written copy" he called

In my pocket a copy of [Harper's] Young People—beautiful double-page engraving by Baude of "The Divine

When you get in town, somewhere within handling of a copy of the Century Dictionary, look up my word,

It was a portrait supplement—years ago—and what you see below there—reproduced from my own hand—out of

Showed him the beginnings of my Lippincott's piece, with which he expressed his content.

And by the side of my dead friend, I could only think how much greater was our actual isolation while

I send you a little box of confections by Adams exp. with my love.

Said, "I have had a letter from Stoddart today enclosing a check for my poem—and he said I should hurry

I told him I could not get my piece into anything like full shape until tomorrow night—would positively

said as I greeted him at the door, "Your hand is most frozen," and I remarked it to W., "Take care—my

The book to include my preface." I had offered to Mrs. O'Connor to read proofs.

"I was on my last man," he remarked, "and would have sent Warrie out to skirmish for them tomorrow.

I shall put them in my own drawer—keep them for mine own humor—and think of you as my messenger."

Would I stop to see him: "Drop a little reminder that I have not my copy of Reisser talk."

the samples I had had—asked them to give the postal to the man with the job in hand and to give him my

Had left my manuscript at door this morning, now he returned.

"This is my Hindoo kerchief.

s immediately after his dinner and before my tea the last few nights and am glad.

Stopped at my newsstand this evening—examined Forum—scribbled on a piece of wrapping paper about a bundle

Also gave me red-lined sheet "To My 71st Year." Had used big pen. "I use it altogether.

I knew it as well as I do my own.

Now, I can do my business either in the morning or the afternoon, and if you could be at the house with

My call is merely social but as I might never see him again, I count on it greatly.

If not, I shall go straight to Camden.I shall carry an alligator-skin satchel, with my initials in silver

The springs break forth like the table there—like my head—like my leg—like my arm—all sizes and forms

"I suppose it is good—it is reputed good, but I can't take it, which people say is my fault not the fault

No other method would accomplish my purpose.'" I asked W., "Do you think he was right?"

I have never told him, he knows that creatures of his kind are distasteful, ugly to me—that I have my

"It needs to have some kinks and corners in before it fits my head"—taking it off, punching it, then

Wished my revisions tomorrow. Promised. Explained this to W.

Further: "Then all my letters—notes—have gone to no purpose!

When I came in W. was working on a sketch of "Good-Bye My Fancy!"—laying it out.

That is my expectation.

As I have always understood Eakins, half of the picture is his, half mine—and my half I promised to Dr

"Yes, I suppose: and now you can witness my wish in the matter—that Bucke shall have it in payment—or

my interest in it—and Eakins' lien, too, if Eakins will assent to it."

When I entered I excused my cold hand. W. thereupon held it.

W. said immediately as to my cold hand, "How good that is! How it takes me out of doors.

This hand of yours has become my daily escape from these walls!"

He brought me my proof—there"—pointing to a chair in which I could faintly catch its long line—"and I

You remember my old story—that every woman, every man—has his or her mate, waiting somewhere on the globe

Stopped in on my way to Unitarian Church, where Law was to lecture on Alexander Wilson.

Wrote my name on its face. "This may have an especial value—on several accounts.

English rescuers in the dark years of my Camden sojourn.

No one, not my best friends—know what it means to me.

"I think I can lay my hand on it. Why, do you want it?

But in the end still insisted, "My view is, that the Doctor will dismiss it—at least, not like it."

No word of my proof from Stoddart yet. W. getting impatient.

us—he has a couple of black colts, the finest, and harness to match—and I am ashamed of myself for my

Myrick set up at my insistence alternative title-pages.

Fairchild writes me as follows: May 4 My dear Mr.

Pray give my love and a goodby to W. W.

"My benison attend her! How always nobly good she is to us! A rare woman, every way."

(the only one I can lay my hands on at present) taken some time ago by Johnston in my little room in

W. on his bed, but arose on my entrance, going heedfully to his chair.

In the portrait I am titivated out of all my good looks!"

My nights are better than my days—I sleep, after a fashion.

And if my 'Leaves' have failed here they have failed altogether.

My work is well known in England & I possess the highest possible testimonials regarding it from Cardinal

yoursRaymond BlathwaytI might add that Lord Tennyson lives in the parish in the I. of Wight of which my

My dear Traubel:I regret to say that it is impossible for me to be with you on the 31st of May, as I

streak of luck I come back in time, I shall certainly be with you on the occasion you speak of.Give my

Told him result of my quest of McKay, who is of course willing to take the book, will arrange imprint

And I renew my original proposal—that just as soon as you can fix the date, you come & spend the Sunday

with me, not to be my guest only, while here, but I am to pay all of the cost of the journey.

You come on my business, & at my request, & indeed we won't get on without the conference.

I hope that you can arrange to come while my sister Mrs.

I sent it.Now I must say good by.And don't fail to note my meaning.